Dear Sir, please don't go on like you are without getting some help for yourself and your parents. After reading your wall profile, it seems fear and fatigue are contributing to your failing health and judgement. How can you go on like this without seriously hurting yourself or someone else? Then who would look out for your folks. Please don't let finances or fear determine your fate. You've been sacrificing your own health at their expense, and seems like you're losing all three in the process. There are alternatives. Contact your local Commission on Aging who can direct you to some resources that can assist you in this process before things become more serious. Your parents need you to be of sound mind, and an extremely weary one can't make good decision. Will be praying for you and your parents.