So after decades of caring for my mother, I am told life goes on....it's been 6 months since her passing and I find myself in a rut. Some days are better than others though. I am dealing with guilt, among many other feelings, as you may know, I am now an only child, not only did 6 siblings of mine not offer to help with her care giving, none of them helped with her memorial either. Thank God for husband and child of mine. I also am relieved that her suffering has finally ended. I miss her all day, I knew I would though....I know what you're going to say: go back to work/school, volunteer, etc. I need to get myself back in good physical shape as well as emotional first. Thanks for listening, you always have.
My deepest sympathies and condolences. I'm so sorry for your loss. Please be kind to yourself. The first year of grief is so hard. I, too, had so much anger with my siblings for not being more involved. Or even caring about what I had to do because they weren't willing. Take care your time and I hope things are getting a little better each day. Thinking of you.
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I am at peace with my mom's passing and enjoying figuring out who I am at this point in my life with no one to take care of except for myself. I am starting on the physical side of myself (taking Pilates). I want to get back in decent physical shape. I'm figuring out what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Surely your mom wouldn't want you to be this sad or missing her this much? Can you shift the focus to celebrate the life she lived and be happy that you were a part of it? I know I did everything I could to make my mom and dad's lives the best they could be and it sounds like you did the same for your mom. So that chapter of my life is over and I'm at peace with letting it go and remembering it fondly. I hope you can come to the same place of peace and acceptance with where you are and you can move forward with a happy and hopeful heart. {{{Hugs}}}