5 days later...

It’s been 5 days since my
momma had an agressive outburst. Me and my brothers talked and decided to not admit her to a hospice or nursing facility. Today her ankles, face and neck are swollen. Delirium is worse and she’s having trouble even staying awake. Having even more difficulties swallowing. Urine has a fowl Oder and incotinence of Bowels. She groans and moans. BP is high one minute and low the next. Pulse is low one min and high the next. She can’t hardly stay awake at this point. Appetite is leaving. Wants to nibble on soft candy is about all. Not taking in much liquids either. Talks of my daddy that passed. Even made a comment he would be home for supper. Speaks of her mother and father who have passed and talks a lot about her childhood (in a mumbling voice). I know Time is very near. She has given the cancer one hell of a fight for 17 months. Hospice says she’s not transitioning yet but not far from it. I have Been taking care of my momma for 17 months and these past 12 weeks have been the hardest. She’s a strong lady and I can Only hope I have A smidge her of strength in me. This forum group has helped me so much. Just being able to vent and talk has helped me. Asking for continued prayers if you pray and if not just send good vibes. Thank you all so much. I love My
momma with all my heart but I do Not want her here on earth like this. The day God takes her home there will be no more sorrow and no more pain.