I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
Hubby and I play hockey. It burns off stress. And some cookies.
So try not to beat yourself up over this. We all know what that kind of stress does to are health.
Also I'm with you there on wanting to just let things go. I'm tired of anger, I don't want to be mad or annoyed or angry anymore. I'm learning that art, but it takes practice. I've let go to a high school friend, that likes to remind me of my dyslexia. I let go of a friend that is way to negative and butts into my life. Ive been learning to let go of my anger towards people in my family. I'm learning that skill but I'm a work in progress.
Ana, it's probably a healthy way to vent are anger.
I did it a few times after particularly bad days with my mother.
You smash it you throw it away . It put closure on the day .
I would like to try the smash room for fun .
And I should really clarify my last post . I don’t think I ever approached the emotion of “ Rage “ . It was more anger , sadness , grief and stress, depression .
Rage is more violent , loss of control .
I was very in control when I decided to take an item to the garage to smash a few times . I had read it can be calming .
Controlled anger can be therapeutic
I agree .
The alliteration “ Rage Room “ makes it catchy .
But it’s a controlled smash room .
The thought of those hatchet throwing places to me is scary . You throw hatchets at a target on a wall I think , like playing darts . There is one by me that is BYOB. That’s a bad combination , booze and hatchets.
Breaking stuff sounds a lot more fun.
He is 12 yrs younger than me. I pretty much raised him. Then when I left at 21, I remember thinking how can I leave him with my dad, and was worried. My dad was very angry, but new better around me. When I had kids mom would often ask me if one of them could spend the night, I new that was code for dads getting grumpy, and he would always keep his cool around my kids. I told him early on , he will never see them if his anger came out around my children.
I always felt guilt for leaving my brother, then when dad passed I heard a lot of horror stories, late night emergency room visits, for "falling"
Even though I know I was just a young adult, I think my one and only regret is leaving, that sweet little boy , that I practically raised. In the hands of someone that could turn into a monster
That guilt I didn't realize I even had is what keeps me in this mess. I'll work on it! Thanks 🙏 👍
If we don't vent, we will blow and that is not healthy for us or our loved ones. So find anything, not drugs, alcohol or food, they just cause more pressure on ourselves, and release that pressure and take care of yourselves starting today!
Tired. Not much sleep, taking BP frequently, low potassium, low heart rate, BP dropping, etc. heart monitor on. EKG, just loads of tests. No eating or drinking, on IV drip.
They don’t know what exactly is going on. Yesterday when I was fixing my lunch, I got dizzy.
DH was working at home. He said that I was leaning on counter, too weak to stand up so he helped me lie on the kitchen floor. Started sweating badly. Couldn’t move for a while.
DH called my doctor and she told him that I needed to get to the ER for evaluation.
Thinking so much about my brother that I lost not long ago from heart disease. He was 72. I am 68.
I want to go home.
So sorry to hear that .
You are very good about taking care of yourself , you go to the doctors regularly .
This could be just a temporary hiccup.
Sometimes your body decides it needs different blood pressure meds , or a different dose .
And change of season , hot out , dehydration , increase in activity can change things.
My Dad had that happen , BP low , sweating low potassium in the summers, and I realized he had to back off a bit on his diuretic in the summer times . That’s the pill that makes you pee and can make your potassium low .
Try not to jump to conclusions.
Keep us posted .
((((Hugs)))
You are in the Hospital?
No clues yet as to what is going on? I wonder if they saw some arrhythmia and are monitoring you.
If you take any kind of diuretic the potassium can get low. And the low BP may be what's causing the dizziness. Worries me you got sweaty too, but that's likely just going a little shocky. We can dehydrate easily, too and almost all seniors show up in the ER with blood that shows they are dehydrated.
Thinking of you and will check in today for updates about you.
May you get well soon.
Love you lady. Hang in there.
I just got back to my room from cardiology. I passed the stress test. I did my ultrasound and EKG. They may order other tests.
The vampires have taken tons of blood. They had me take meds to raise my potassium. Still on IV fluids. They are watching my BP regularly.
They have an alarm on my bed in case I try to escape. I had no idea until, I tried to get up to use the bathroom, and it went off.
Maybe, they told me and I forgot. Anyway, the nurse came in and said that they have to be with me when I get out of bed to go to the bathroom.
I haven’t been allowed to eat or drink anything since I got here.
Hopefully, I can eat and drink soon. I want my coffee! The nurse said that I can drink coffee when the doctor says that I can eat and drink.
They are saying that I have to drink more water because I was dehydrated when I arrived.
The cardiologist adjusted my meds. He was glad that I passed the stress test. He said that if my heart rate doesn’t improve, he will talk to me about a pacemaker.
Not sure when I am leaving the hospital, but when I do, my cardiologist ordered a heart monitor to use at home for a month.
Thank you again for your thoughtful words and prayers. It means a lot to me. I have never felt so weak that I couldn’t even stand up.
Y’all know how I like to cook. I was just getting ready to fix lunch for my husband and I. It’s a good thing that DH happened to be in the kitchen with me, rather than in his office.
Otherwise, I would have fallen on the floor. He was able to help me lie down on the floor. He brought me a pillow to place my head on.
He said that I was barely conscious and sweating a lot. He put a cool wash cloth on my forehead.
He said that it took a while before I responded to his questions. I think I laid on the floor for about ten minutes or so.
He wanted to call 911. I asked him to wait a bit. So, he said, “I will call your doctor to see what we should do.” He drove me to the hospital. I hope I can leave here soon.
Difference is that you go directly into a cubicle instead of waiting, tho they should have triages you right in with your symptoms anyway.
Looks like I pegged the dehydration, but missed the possible low heart rate. Could be due to the potassium. Glad you aren't having to get it IV need, because it burns like a son of a gun.
Are you on any meds that can lower the heart rate? Neil is and has long had a pacer. Two decades or more. They are very sophisticated these days and they last a long long time without battery changes. And they are every so much more small. Not a tough procedure either.
Sounds you are getting great care. So glad no collapse because it is the falls that can hurt you so bad. (No I still have not heard from the good doctor in the Museum who hit the floor by my side).
I am so relieved to know you are ok.
You mentioned dizziness and "would have fallen" and have low rate and low BP so you have not hit the "fall prone" list which means out of bed with help only. When I used to see low heart rate I would say "Do you take atenolol" and I swear half of the folks say yes. I take it myself so I measure BP and HR daily.
Thinking of you and have been in and out all day watching for your update. I am so glad you are in good hands!
Stay positive, you will be home before you know it.
I suspect most people in new Orleans are dehydrated. Keep us posted and get some rest.
Btw alvas right, call 911 next time
If you wind up needing a PM, it's not life altering at all. The guy next door had one installed at 80 and my aunt at 92.
Chin up, dear lady, and let's get you food and drink soon. My question is, do they serve crawfish pie or etouffe in the Louisiana hospitals? 🤣😃😂
Anxietynacy, I think a lot of folks in NOLA are dehydrated due to all the cocktails you can get even while shopping in the grocery store! 🤣Ay yi yi! Not our NHWM of course.
Let us know how the food is when you finally eat .
I hope you’re home soon, enjoying a delicious dinner.
Sending prayers your way.