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JoAnn......lol......its 2 hours earlier here in Colo than in NJ! 😁😂🤣

Cxm: an interventional radiologist does the lumbar puncture guided by ultrasound so it's better than it once was. Not looking forward to it I will say.

Pecan, I've lost a lot of lengthy posts too and ugh, terribly frustrating. I felt your other post and your BILs words in my heart.....felt You were right about following the Neuro and his guidance. Tests do not always show everything like encephalitis PLUS I have this bad neck stenosis issue that the neurologist was suspicious about. It feels like my head is disconnected from my neck creating a bobble head feeling which COULD be NECK related ergo a neck MRI ordered. Gotta know what's going on for SURE before any further decisions can be made re treatments. This level of adverse and serious reaction is no joke. Plus it appears to me the issues ARE more prevalent in my left brain/eye/head area, including the zaps that still pop up. He asked me specifically and it's just now dawned on me, YES, left side centered. What does that mean? As Dr C would say, " who knows" and who cares..the Neuro cares methinks.

Bandy, I had no time constraints while speaking to the Neuro, he was thorough and I was able to give him a good factual timeline plus he had accessed all my files on Epic that he reviewed prior. I feel he's on it and ordered the Right tests now plus I'm seeing his partner on Thurs.

FG, YES, praise God I am still full of enough piss and vinegar (And crap) to speak up and especially when I feel wronged, even whole addled.

The laser light show is gone from my left eye as of this morning. The spider is still hanging out in front of my eye and irritating the snot out of me. Black floaters persist all over too, so I'm upping my prednisone to 80 WHERE IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ALL ALONG. We'll see if that makes any difference to the insect parade I'm dealing with.

I always feel pretty good at 2 or 3 am oddly enough. So last night I was actually able to take a few small steps w/o holding onto my walker! I'll take it as progress in the Right direction, ty Jesus. Today it's attempted shower day so I don't stink out my son's house when we go visit my grandson tomorrow, by hook or by crook. That child lights me up when he's not screeching. But hey, I have severe hearing loss for hi pitched sounds so......the Neuro DID say hearing loss (Even w/o eardrum damage) can be VERY hard to recover once it's lost 😑. One day at a time tough, right?
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Just caught up and woo-hoo for the neurologist! Sounds like someone is on the ball. Dr. C sounds like he's so wrapped up in being an "expert " he can't think out of the box. Hope you have a relaxed weekend!
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I agree on that hearing loss thing. once lost it's difficult to really know in everyday life, other than that both N. and I have to yell "WHATTTTTTTTT????????" down the hall more frequently. He has hearing aids PRN (as needed/wanted). I have refused. I know my right ear is pretty much out of it, because if I close over the left ear I pretty much go underwater.
Alas. I hear WAY more than I want to, so no hearing aids for me!

Glad you are up to such a long update this a.m. Lea, and am so struck by the fact that you now hear all about brain zaps and taps, but NOT hearing you mention pains.
To me that has to mean something? Maybe I am just choosing hope.

Mr. N. goes on Wed. for eye "procedure"--read bubble inserted with a NEEDLE into the eye. Another small retinal tear. His last was decades ago, and quite large. Not much I can do about any of this but sit with it and think of horror shows involving eyes, a true phobia for me. They can mess with anything on me, needle me to death, but NOT MY EYES.

As to lumbar puncture, yours is being done so they aren't going to be fishing around for the right spot. Do try to take in fluid after as it will help with the headache. Stay flat long as they tell you and then some if you can tolerate it. You CAN ask for a pre med or pre procedure sedative; I would, myself. Snow yourself and sleep it off. Remind me again what day the LP happens?

Good good good to hear from you, and to imagine you tomorrow seeing the grandchild.
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Alva, no pain is a great thing, absolutely. Again, I could be in remission which is the goal of each immunotherapy session, it's definitely a possibility. My lips to God's ears.

My dear father had 20 or more eye surgeries for glaucoma and endured each one even WITH my mother going berserk next to him. Stupid how SHE needed the Xanax while HE was being stuck w needles in his eye. He never lost vision or had bad side effects from those surgeries so wishing N the best of luck with his procedures.

LP hasn't been scheduled yet,,,,,referral wasn't in the system by 5 pm on Fri so I'll call Monday.
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Scripture du jour:

"The Lord bless you and keep you;
the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you;
the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace.'

- Numbers 6:24-26 

Good morning LL, I surely hope it is a good morning for you!
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I managed to walk 10 small steps twice yesterday while holding the walker a few inches off the floor! I think that may be progress in the midst of everything. Chuck was rendered speechless which is a rarity I've seen 2x in 18 years. But not totally speechless bc he SAID "I'm speechless." Hello? 🤣

The 3 of us, me Chuck and all the floaters are getting dressed and Faking it Till We Feel it by going to see our 2 yo grandson shortly. I will even wear a few pieces of my ridiculously enormous jewelry collection ( mostly costume from years of estate sales) and NOT remove 1 piece before taking off! Who suggested such nonsense anyway, Coco Chanel?

If my grandson is in a screeching mood, my hearing loss will come in handy. God doesn't give us more than we can handle, right? 😁

I hope you all have a beautiful spring day today and that I have more good things to share later on.
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Don't know about your reflexes, but your humor is examined and found to be INTACT!

Have a beautiful day, Lea.
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Enjoy spending time with your grandchild today, Lea.

I know that you will look lovely with your estate sale accessories completing your outfit.

My daughters always commented on how stylish my mother dressed. She loved her accessories too.

Often times, my mom was way more stylish than I was. I was too exhausted to care about being stylish.

So glad that you were able to take a short stroll with your walker.
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10 steps without the walker! TWICE! Yippeeee!

Have a wonderful time with your grandson. He is blessed to have you as his grandma!
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Me again! For some reason I thought u were in Hawaii. Senior moment? So glad the Neurologist seems to know what is going on. Seems your doing a little better. Here is my ((HUG)) for today and 💞too.
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Bandy, I may truly be in remission, with God's help! No pain is HUGE and not something I overlook. I am ok waiting for a PET scan bc I'm not sure how I'd emotionally receive potentially ugly news right now. There's been too much going on the past month that I haven't even been able to focus on the lack of pain! Now that I'm feeling better physically I'm feeling better emotionally too. I need to keep that feeling alive in me w/o another blow for a bit, if that makes sense. I have things to accomplish and state of mind here is KEY to keeping me focused.

I thank you for your help, your cheering me on, your adamant refusal to shrink back from the reality here, while focusing on the miracles that ARE happening in spite of the setbacks. And reminding me that God has my back.

As I've said and will continue to say, AIN'T NO EFFIN BEAUTY MARK GONNA BRING ME DOWN! 😁😘😙😚


This event is part of my journey for some reason, and I accept the challenge. It won't be w/o crying jags, meltdowns, getting super ticked off at docs who show little compassion, w/o sleepless nights second guessing myself and each decision I've made thus far, though. That too is part of my journey and I'd like to think something positive will rise up out of this chaos one day and that dime I originally found on the floor of the ER back in Jan will have been the miraculous good luck charm I saw it as.

Amen.
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JoAnn.... oh I wish I was in Hawaii right now and floating in the ocean. 😘

My grandson was all laughter and light today, truly a gift to revive me He ate 5 meals in a 3 hr period not including a huge breakfast out! I suggested mom get him a growth chart bc oop, here it comes....a GROWTH SPURT 😂🤣

Cxm........ty. I did a few sets of 30 steps today holding the walker up! Yahoooooo!!

NHWM....I put ON another piece of jewelry today for my grandson who expects to see me wearing a long blingy necklace and rings whenever he sees me. Loves it all. I even put on a long silver sweater cardigan w sequins here and there to complete the look. He was blinded by the bling 🤣😂
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T H I R T Y!!!

A FEW TIMES!!!

Such good news!!
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Lea,

Your grandson sounds adorable! I’m sure that he was thrilled to see you.

When my oldest daughter was very young and wasn’t able understand the concept of time, I couldn’t tell her that grandma was coming over in a little while.

If grandma didn’t show up immediately she would start crying and begging to see her.

I had to say things like, at the end of Sesame Street grandma will be here. Or not tell her until I saw the car pulling into my driveway.

I am so glad that you were able to see your precious grandchild. I bet that he loved all of the sparkle and glam!
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Lordy, Lea, It is SOOOO good to see you have a few days where you can simply come to the surface for a little air.
Now it looks like you are going to a triathalon, and loaded down with the queen's jewels on top of it.
It is so very good to hear of this very good day for you.
I honestly think that there is so much strength and healing in just days without bombardment of testing and treatment.
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LL... such wonderful reports from you today -- hurrah!!
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Lea: How wonderful about the steps you took! And so great that you and Chuck could get out to see your grandson!💛
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Scripture du jour:

Speaking of taking steps...

"We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps."

- Proverbs 16:9


"When you walk, you won’t be held back; when you run, you won’t stumble."

- Proverbs 4:12


"The Lord directs the steps of the godly.
    He delights in every detail of their lives.
Though they stumble, they will never fall,
    for the Lord holds them by the hand."

- Psalm 37:23-24

LL, keep on truckin', baby!
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Your story is very interesting. Extending best wishes and prayers for health and recovery.
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Glad you are doing much better. Aren't grands just wonderful.

((HUG))💞
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You are hidden under a whole mess of other threads this a.m.
I am taking that as good news.
We are not out here desperately seeking google info on side effects, symptoms, treatments. You hopefully are having another "free-day".

Speaking of which-- those spiders, Lea. Are they nesting on one side or the other if you close your eyes one side at a time, or on both? I am curious.

I have been thinking of you all bejeweled, and thinking of our memories, how they live with us until we ourselves are gone. My Mom and Dad were likely as great a love story as you and your Chuck. They were so in love all their lives. And they always had date nights.
When I was a little one--don't know how young-- and my aunt or a sitter was there, and I was all tucked in bed my mom, a pretty woman in any case, would come sit on the bed to tell me goodnight. She always was dressed so pretty, with her makeup on, and with some piece of costume jewelry that my Dad had brought her home from the big city (Chicago) where he worked. And she always smelled of Tabu. It's such a STRONG memory.

Her favorite film toward the end of her life was Ghost. My Dad was gone, and she loved the story, and the final words about how the love stays. You get to keep the love.
Just thinking of memory and your grandson. I guess 2 year olds don't have much language to gather memories for life. I think we must need language to tell ourselves what we saw. So you better stick around until he talks for certain. So he can file that in his brain.....
I saw a beautiful be-jeweled woman........all aglitter.

How exquisite, what you wrote to RealyReal. How very beautiful.
I hope this is a good day and will check in with you tonight.
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Alva.....the spiders and floaters are in my left eye, although fill my peripheral vision field with both eyes open. If I close my left eye only, I see NO FLOATERS. If I close my right eye, they're all swarming. My issues seem to stem from the left side of my brain which was a question the Neuro was asking.

My face is now officially a caricature of its former self, thanks to 80 mgs of Pred daily. A boxy thing I've seen before, unfortunately. Idk that my grandson will remember a beautiful woman in his life, but BEJEWELED he will 😂🤣

Im not dissing myself btw about being bloated. Just a journal comment to underline the progression. I feel pretty good today...the dizziness has changed......i can't explain it. Like it's dissipating to a wider region as it lets go of causing that bobble head effect. Not so concentrated in one area I guess. Still walking some w the walker held up.

Off to the Opthamologist now and I will check back in later after I'm cleared for bad things. My cousin Linda has the same floater situation in her eyes after the covid jabs. Two years now she's not driving and the doc says all is well. Sigh.
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Its called Posterior Vitreous Detachment in my eyes, whats going on w the floaters and assorted insects following me around. Not dangerous or a retinal tear, thankfully, but something that should resolve "in time". The Opthamologist was skeptical that this issue came about due to the Skyrizzi infusion. I'm skeptical that it wasn't precisely BECAUSE of that infusion. Whatever. The buggers are here to stay for a while along w the dizziness and yada yada, so I'm working on ignoring as much as I can. I'm finding ways to hold onto countertops and doorways (and walker) to make my way around the house and kitchen w/o relying on Chuck 100%. If this is going to go on for another 7 weeks (till the 2nd tx is hone out of my system), then I'd BETTER find some workarounds. The brain adapts when it has no other choice.

I'm free now from poking, prodding and dilation of my eyes till Neurology checks me out on Thursday afternoon, phew.
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I HAD the same thing.

And if you want coincidences? I had it at the same time N. had a retinal detachment about a decade ago. I suddenly said "I am seeing lights and floaters as well!" We couldn't believe it, but that is how we can have something happen when something else is happening and connect the two when in fact it is happenstance.
In any case, mine changed my vision at once and permanently in that eye. It has not got better. They tell me there is scar tissue that happened at the time and that is reason for the change in the right eye. They would not attempt to mess with it UNLESS I ever lose vision in the good left eye. They say it is often not helped and occ. hurt more in messing with it. They actually called mine a vitreous tear if I remember right. So it could be a bit different, but yes, not in the retina.

I have more floaters in my eye on that side and some "visual hallucination" (LOVE the word!) such as black birds flashing by. Ha ha, just as good as spiders I am thinking.

Wow. Glad that there is an answer anyway. I find that the most difficult thing for me now is reading regular print. My eyes try to adapt and adjust to one another in the brain. Not sure the brain is much good anymore either, as proofreading anything I write of late shows.

You are completely correct that the brain adapts when its forced to, and it is quite GOOD at it when we make it.
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Scripture du jour:

"And now we thank you, our God, and praise your glorious name."

- 1 Chronicles 29:13

LL, so much praiseworthy progress!!
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Thank you Lord for touching Lealonnie and guiding her during this trial.

Blessed be your Holy name!

Great big warm hug! You warrior, you!
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Praying for a better day with side effects and that each day you have less and less until they're gone completely.
And of course I'm still standing in agreement with everyone on here for your total healing.
In other words a MIRACLE!
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Having gone through it last summer I wondered about the possibility of Posterior Vitreous Detachment (I would have had to google the name), but I thought it best not to arm chair diagnose. Glad it's just "normal aging🙄".
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ITRR, I'm sure this is the first great big warm hug you've bestowed upon me, and I appreciate it! 😘 Sometimes a hug is the best medicine of all.

CWillie, normal aging which just happened to coincide with some toxic bag of swill that was IVed into my body. Snicker. Alva, I can buy the coincidence between you and N with the floaters, but not in my case. Either way, what's done is done. No improvement in that area as yet, except the insects are smaller.

Funny thing but I was beginning to feel angry towards some of my family and friends for them ignoring me lately. I have no control over other people's behaviors, so during one of my many sleepless steroid nights, I prayed to God to soften up my hard heart a bit and just stop letting anger take over. That was Sunday night. On Monday, my financial advisor called me to say how he's been thinking of me so much since I called him about our accounts, letting him know of my dx and asking for guidance. Which he glossed right over w/o as much as one peep about Gee I'm sorry to hear that, etc. He said he was thrown for a loop and apologized!

Then my cousin called to say when her Uncle George passed in Jan, they were given an inheritance that they wanted to share some of with ME! I was gobsmacked. Chuck went to the mailbox and there found a check for $500.

2 other friends called me then to check on me, which lifted my spirits.

The dx came back ok from the Opthamologist, no danger to my eyesight going on.

A Homestead Senior Act tax break I applied for in Jan was approved, lowering my property valuation by 100k just for tax break purposes.

All in one day.

"Miracles" come in many shapes and sizes, and aren't limited to parting the sea and walking on water. If we look for huge miracles, we often miss all the small ones going on around us.

Sometimes we just need to humble ourselves and ask God for help in small, seemingly insignificant ways. That is when God comes thru BIG TIME in my opinion, granting wishes that are pure and not rooted in "heal me immediately please I have no patience and I'm scared." But instead, please God, heal my angry heart some and soften it up so resentment doesn't erode my soul.

Amen.
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Oooo! I love what you prayed, and how God decided to answer you. Friends and finance guy and a check, just for surprise and delight! 😂❤️
Isn’t He amazing?!!

Praying here for ya, before my nap!
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