What happened to my compassion and patience?

You need a break.

I understand...I used to be so patient and kind....I had one of those days today and found myself cursing at Dancing With the Stars of all things....simply because the show was too long... ( Maks and Meryl won...yay!!! ) but I digress.....my picture is my cranky old "b" in the dictionary these days....I try not to be this way..I hate that I am this way. Last night I went out and sat on the deck after finally getting Mama settled down...I openly acknowledged in prayer out loud that I know I have a major problem and I truly need help here. I manage it for a while, but then I get so frustrated and will catch myself clenching my teeth and just ready to explode.....heaven help whoever aggravates me on a day like this....I am ashamed when I get this way. I am so tired...all the time these days. I think it's normal to feel this way...but also not good for it to last too long. It does help me to be able to come here and talk about it....I appreciate everyone for that....

Me Too..Its horrible..I love her so much but errrr..sometimes I'm
hating myself for yelling at her.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE....LINDA (FROM CALIFORNIA)

Jules, look into respite care, talk to her MD if he can write the approval for that. You really need a break. I deal with it by posting here, because I see other people in worse situations and it reminds me to be grateful for what I have left.