He is showing signs of short-term memory loss and this is documented. I'm about to become his guardian and conservator because he no longer can make decisions for himself. I don't like to leave him alone but I have to dropoff and pickup my son from preschool. I'm home a lot and I feel he is being disrespectful when I come home and he is on the main floor unassisted. I feel I need to treat him like a child and put restrictions in place some how. Do you know where I'm coming from? I have a lot of patience. I'm doing all that I can but my feelings are jumbled because sometimes I think he's just being lazy and he has verbally said, ''I don't feel like it". I cleanup after him and prepare all his meals and run all his errands. Thankfullly, a caregiver is coming next week for a stretch of time. I feel guilty and disrespected. I guess this is normal BUT I know he doesn't remember. Just need to air it out for THE FIRST TIME. He's been living with me for 2 years now. I love him with much compassion and grace I can muster. I'm tired and sometimes feel defeated. Thoughts welcome.
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I am so burned out from doing this because I didn't reach out for help and advice from other caregivers earlier, and got no help and didn't insist on it from others, when I should have. I thought I could handle it all. I have had no respite in over 4 years. It's insane for us to think we can do this at home alone and it doesn't work well very often, from everything I've heard and read. If there's any dysfunction in the family or extended family, don't even try it - it's guaranteed to be a disaster. Most of our parents really would be better off in assisted living for just the obvious medical reasons. And being around other people in similar circumstances and age, would probably be happier with the more appropriate social contact they'd be having. Mom thought she'd be happier at home, and it's been awful for her and me. Neither of us has any measure of happiness. But no one in the family wants to admit their mistakes, except me, but I'm the one stuck with all the work, so unless I run off, I don't see anything changing until mom goes, and who knows what will be left of me by then. Caregiving does change you, and not always in good ways.