Nearly three weeks ago I moved my mom in with me. Her delusions and hallucinations were so bad. Now after being here two plus weeks she is doing so good. I suspect it is because I handle all of the medications now, plus she is not alone.
She wants to go home so bad. She's wearing me down. In just a few days the court will decide on guardianship. Mom is very upset about me doing this to her. I sometimes feel I can do no more. Her tears are hard to take. How do you come to terms with taking so much away from a person, especially your mother?
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Just as they cared for us when we weren't able to make decisions, we sometimes need to do that for them too. Unfortunately that means that you've got to take the decision making away from them. She certainly wasn't able to do anything while hallucinating. Try to explain the reasoning behind your actions and include her in on as much as possible. Ask for her opinion on different things so it seems you are still "learning" from her and relying on her guidance. Thank her for helping you.
Gosh life is hard. Pray a lot.
I began reading the article you referenced but couldn't finish it b/c it was so upsetting. Perhaps some day when I can handle reading about extensive abuse of individual rights...but it addressed so many abuses, such flagrant disregard and exploitation of seniors...it was just too much to contemplate. I was becoming so angry as I read it that I stopped, for my own health. I didn't want to have a heart attack or stroke.
As to your initial question, I think we have to find a way to get downtime, to recharge our emotional and mental batteries. Sometimes other things just have to be put aside. I've found that gardening magazines are so relaxing, and re-invigorate me. I read them when I do laundry, so it makes a less than enjoyable chore more pleasurable, and repositions me for going back to the caregiving grind.
What would you do if you had more leisure time?
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I posted this link a few days ago. I don't know if it will help you or not but here it is again:
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2017/10/09/how-the-elderly-lose-their-rights
I know that it in fact does represent taking a lot from her, and it's hard to emphasize the obverse, that you're enabling yourself to do things for her, not for yourself.
Perhaps you can think about all the reasons why you want guardianship, how it enables you to care for her to ensure that her care is the best it can be under the circumstances. If you can offer examples it may help.
Can you also create special treats or events for her? Doing something she likes, so that she doesn't feel as if she's being stripped of her rights?
After the guardianship hearing, I'd take her to someplace very special, someplace that makes her feel loved and benefited, not stripped of her rights?