My son had an accident and passed away. Too young and too fast.

Cali,
I can only imagine how devastated you must be. I'm so sorry on the loss of your son.

What I would suggest is that you stay with a family member or friend for the next few days. Also call the therapists office and tell them you aren't coping well, that it's hard to breathe. That can be a sign of a panic attack. Ask to be seen much sooner.

If you don't get a good response, call your medical doctor's office and see if you can be seen right away. If necessary, go to an Urgent Care. They can refer you to the proper places to get some help.

I know you want to be with your son, as anyone would, but he would not want you to do anything to end your life. You need to keep living and work through your grief. He is with you in your heart.
The Suicide Crisis line is 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

May God help you in this agonizing time.

cali I know the feeling that you can't breathe. It is part of grieving. I still get it once in a while. Please come back and tell us more about how you are. There is support here

Sue has given you many ideas to follow up.

Big ((((((((hugs)))))) to you. I am sure your son knows you love him. I am so terribly sorry you lost him.

Cali. My deepest sympathies. I can not imagine. I’ll pray for you.     There is no greater loss.   I’m so sorry 

Call your local crisis line and stay on the phone as long as you need too.

Know that your son needs to keep living and keep his memory alive.

My heart goes out to you.

Hi Cali. I am so sorry, If you need help please call a suicide line. I know the feeling as I lost my youngest son 15 years ago. it is the hardest thing I have ever been through. but it does get better in time.

Can you tell me more about yourself and your son?

Cali, I am so sorry. Keep breathing!

Awe, so sorry Calli, Big hug
And keep reaching out here, there's always someone to talk with any hour of the day or night.
Hugs, hugs, hugs!!!!!!

There is more for you to do here. You cannot leave now. Although I know you feel like you want to. I know you are hurting. I can't imagine the pain. You are in my prayers and in the hands of a loving Father who understands exactly what you are going through. Please call a grief counselor. All Hospice providers have them and they can help you even if you did not go through hospice. You need to think about what your son would want you to do.

Oh, Cali, I cannot imagine your pain. I can't. May sweet memories of your son bring you some peace. {hug}

Please, don't hold in your grief. Scream at the moon then scream as the sun rises. Beat at the ground. Hold yourself and imagine your arms are really your friends here holding you. Take deep breaths. Hang on for one more day.