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cdnreader Asked June 2022

I'm still angry and resentful of my siblings after my dad passed. Any advice on how to cope?

I've been the family caregiver my whole life. Told to take care of younger siblings. Then my parents divorced, and I tried to provide financial and emotional support to both parents. Then my mom got cancer and I took her to all her appointments. Then my grandmother needed help, too. Then my father had a stroke, and I also managed all his care and his home. It's been almost 6 years since he passed, and I still feel angry and resentful with my siblings.


My sisters don't show me any respect, care, or consideration. Made to feel like the family scapegoat. I tried so hard to be selfless and it has meant nothing.


Is it hopeless? Should I live with this estrangement and indifference?

AlvaDeer Jun 2022
We have basically two chances at family. The one we are born into and the one that we make for ourselves. After all this trying to be validated and vindicated I think it is time to move on and build your own family of caring and loving souls. We often act in habitual ways because while they are torturous they are at least representing for us "the known". There is nothing scarier than taking another path, trying something different. In all truth we sometimes don't even know HOW to do it, so we keep on like the old mill pony, going in circles carrying the load, wearied and in pain.
I would consider getting help. Tell your therapist going in exactly what you told us. Comb through new ways of living,new goals, new boundaries to protect yourself. It's clear to us here you value, your WORTH, from all you have done. Now it needs to get clear for YOU in your own head. Once it is there, you will no longer need the evaluation of others.
I surely do wish you the very best. I hope you will update us as you explore new ways of being. There are people out there who are good, kind and loving. Go get em!
cdnreader Jun 2022
Thank you Alva. (((hugs)))
Beatty Jun 2022
Don't wait for their applause & pats on the back. You didn't help to get their praise afterall. You did it because you felt called to. Some are called to teaching, some to healing professions, others for charity work. You heeded your calling. Be proud of yourself & thank yourself today. Tell yourself well done.

Then be grateful for the new opportunity to care for yourself now!

I am curious - what does 'being selfless' mean to you?

I personally dislike the word selfless. (Why have less self?) I also dislike the work selfish. But I DO like the term self-care. It is self*respecting*.

Maybe with self-love, you may love your own traits, forgive the others for being who they are & avoid astrangement. Happy day to you.
cdnreader Jun 2022
I thought selfless meant putting everyone else first. It was wrong of me to have no boundaries. Being taken for granted and blamed and treated like a nobody has been hurtful.

I agree with you and self care and self respect and self love are important.

Appreciate your kind answer.

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emily53 Jul 2022
Beware of those who may judge you now by saying things like you are just "feeling sorry for yourself". Our feelings are not right or wrong, they are simply human! Your feelings of anger and resentment are normal human emotions AND sharing them here took courage. My own siblings also treated me badly so I understand how deeply that can HURT. I've been meeting with a professional counselor to help me deal with my anger and family estrangement in healthy ways. Take care of yourself!
cdnreader Jul 2022
(((hugs))) Deeply appreciate your kind and supportive words.
Gershun Jul 2022
Cdnreader,

I understand perfectly how you feel. I didn't have as much as a time as you did since I only looked out for my mom. But my siblings didn't help much thats for sure. I was always looking out for my mom from the time my dad died when I was four and throughout my mom's life.

For instance when my older brother defaulted on a loan my mom had cosigned for him. This was when I was about 18 yrs. old. I found my mom crying in her room one day cause she had to pay his loan and had no money for groceries or bill payments that mth. I had four older siblings at the time. I told my mom no problem, I'd give her the money. No one else stepped up to offer and one sister even gave me grief cause I slept in the day my mom went to the bank. Mom got the money no problem but my one sister still glared at me cause I'd slept in that day. Even when she could have helped out but didn't.

Fast forward to my mom's declining years. Same thing. I did most everything but got criticized on how I did it from sibs. The gall when you think about it. Standing on the sidelines watching someone knock themselves out and criticize instead of pitching in. Or visiting mom, seeing that things look bad and instead of stepping up, phoning me to do something and then tell me how I didn't do it right afterward. When my mom died we wouldn't have even had a ceremony to say good bye if I had not arranged it. It was like herding cattle, but harder.

I've never been respected by my sibs. I know I never will. I've learned to not expect it. Once you learn to have no expectations from your sibs you'll learn not to care anymore. One other thing changed along the way. I lost all respect for them too. I don't look up to them, don't care what they think of me anymore and that's that.

Forget about them. Instead be proud of yourself and all you've done.
bundleofjoy Jul 2022
“I lost all respect for them too. I don't look up to them, don't care what they think of me anymore and that's that.”

verrry good point.

there’s a natural tendency to look up to our older siblings, even admire them.

i’m the youngest also.

like you, gershun:
i’ve lost all respect for them, too.
Taarna Jul 2022
You have a kind and generous heart. Unfortunately, others in your family do not. Stop expecting the milk of kindness to come from stone. Find those that will love and care for you as you need and deserve. Remain friendly with the other family members but stop expecting them to act differently. If this feeling remains for more than a few weeks, please consider seeing a counsellor to process these emotions and get to an emotionally healthier place.
cdnreader Jul 2022
Thank you Taarna. Appreciate it.:-)
Gershun Jul 2022
Touchmatters, no offense but your post makes it sound that Cdnreader somehow is responsible for how her sibs treat her cause she doesn't set boundaries and feels bad about herself. I think a lot of what you said is a load of psycho babble.

Maybe her sibs are the ones with the problems cause they need to feel superior so they made Cdnreader a scapegoat. Maybe they should examine themselves.

Theres no excuse for treating someone bad whether she chose to take on the responsibility or not.
Its never acceptable behavior. Whether someone has self esteem problems or not.
emily53 Jul 2022
I agree with you Gershun and thanks much for speaking up. We don't deserve to be treated disrespectfully, under ANY circumstances. Blessings!
KNance72 Jul 2022
Move on they don’t care and let go of them
sometimes it’s best to release toxic relationships and let the trash take itself out . Make a goal - fall in love , go on that hiking trip , buy that sexy dress , put on some make up and go out and have some fun . Focus on you now and the rest of your life - stay happy and healthy and find a new hobby like gardening . You can do it - this is your life .
cdnreader Jul 2022
Thank you. I'll try.:-)
Llamalover47 Jul 2022
cdnreader: Kind and compassionate individuals like you are often taken advantage of and used. I am sorry that your siblings treated you in such an incomprehensible way. You need not 'play their game,' but you don't have to accept being mistreated either. True story: I have befriended individuals in my 75 years on this earth who treated me poorly/used me. It didn't mean that I have to be this or that person's bff, but it also didn't mean that I subjected myself to being someone's doormat. You are such a wonderful individual and a longtime AC poster. Big hugs and love sent.
cdnreader Jul 2022
(((hugs))) Thank you Llamalover47. Appreciate your words. I will try harder to defend myself and treat myself better.
LoveLea Jul 2022
As you’ve read in several responses, it’s not unusual for siblings to place all the responsibilities on one person. It’s saddening to see it happen because it shows just how much they really love their parent(s) and sibling. When your parents need help the most, that’s when your siblings turned their backs and walked away. Sadly, you can’t change your siblings. It is a decision that they will have to live with for the rest of their lives. One day, they, too, will be old, sick, and needing help. But payback will come. Rest assure that payback will come.
hellokarma Jul 2022
Re-posting your last two sentences:
“But payback will come. Rest assure that payback will come.”

Music to my ears.

Sincerely yours,

Hello Karma
Surviving Jul 2022
Easier said than done! Sorry I posted accidentally before I was done. In a nutshell, I have moved on. I talk to my sisters only when it deals with my mother otherwise, I have seen them for who they truly are these past few years and frankly I don’t like them! We don’t get to choose our family, but I have decided I will choose who I spend my precious time with moving forward. They are missing out on time with our mother. That is something they will have to live with. Life is short as we all know, don’t waste it. I thought I had a perfect supportive family that would come together and help when things were bad, I was wrong. And realizing and admitting that to myself was hard. Harder than letting go of sibling resentment. I now focus on my wonderfully supportive husband, children and my Mom. They deserve my attention and love!
I wish you peace and much love moving forward. Seek out professional help if you need to but be well and don’t let them win! You are the winner here!
cdnreader Jul 2022
Thank you Surviving. Appreciate everything you said. You're so right and we do have to focus on what matters. Good of you care for your mom. x
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