How should I feel as a 16-18 year old who grew up with little knowledge on my own grandpa. As everyone knows life goes fast.

You are learning about human limitations.
The hard way.
By experience.
So you can only be a support where you can, and you need to watch carefully to understand what NOT TO BE.

I just responded to someone above that my partner was raised by a religious fanatic father who didn't believe in doctors and wouldn't allow him to see one even if he broke a bone. His mother, abused by the dad in that manner, fearing for her son became overprotective to the extent she wouldn't allow him even to play. Clutching on to her son while threatening to leave both father and son by suicide, she made his life a fearful living Hades on earth.

He remained kind and faithful but when his Dad died he honestly was relieved and when the mother died many years later, after his watching over her from states away, calling once a week, visiting a week a year, he was relieved she was gone.

How did then my partner come to be such a good, strong, kind and loving man?
He says they taught him everything NOT TO BE.

Perhaps it is just thinking (which you are doing) about what you want for your own life, what you are learning out of all this. Perhaps we are some of us just genetically more equipped to survive. I really can't know. But I do think a lot is attitude.

I am sorry, you are going through tough stuff. I see some people come out stronger and I see some people come out sinking down into what they "see", what they "know", and repeating the very things they loathed as they grew up.
I can only wish you the best, and tell you, I have faith you can rise above, can learn. You are a thinker, and they ROCK.

Is there a school counselor you can safely speak with? You are at the beginning of a huge long journey, and the 20s are when you LEARN so much, through both good and tough experience. I wish you so much luck.

I'd like to add in addition to my previous idea about checking out Americorps, yes, of course the military is a possible option. My relative in Americorps wasn't ready to make a military commitment right out of high school - it involves putting your life on the line, which is certainly something to consider at age 18 - so that's why he chose Americorps. That way he was on his own, traveled with a team, and got to see a lot of the US. Now, as a college graduate, he's thinking again about joining the military - this time, as an officer.

Before anyone protests my cautions about joining the military at such a young age, know that my husband is a retired military officer who proudly served. He joined at age 24.

“ I’ve seen him get beat”. Do you mean grandma is physically assaulting your grandfather? If so you need to call APS,
Adult Protective Services.

If you do not feel safe at home you can tell the police , you can tell the guidance counselor at school if you are still in high school . Tell the counselor you “ feel lost “. Ask to be directed to your local county social worker . Perhaps they can help you find somewhere else to live , as well as a therapist to talk to . Schools also have psychologists you can speak to . Ask to speak to one , tell him/her you “ feel lost”. If you are in college you can go to the student health center for these issues , they can direct you to where you can get help .

I’m so sorry about your situation. You are young and deserve to focus on your own life , figuring out what you want to do , socializing with friends. This is not being selfish . This is how you learn to be an independent adult .

What's the actual problem?

How old are your grandparents?

What state/county do you live in?

Do you have any other relatives or trusted adults to help you?

Does your grandpa have an actual medical diagnosis of dementia (not just someone's opinion), or other health issues (like, diabetes)?

Is your Grandmom still working?

For abuse, call 911. Even if the abuser is your Grandmom. Or, call APS -- but be prepared that your Grandpa may be removed from the house at some point. It's possible your Grandmom has caregiver burnout, or she herself has cognitive decline and is overwhelmed and less able to handle life.

I'm sorry you're in this situation. Please provide more info.

Johndoe222...
I have to ask this...
when you say you hear "fights" and you say "I have seen him get beat" are you talking about PHYSICAL fights and PHYSICAL beatings. Or even Verbal fights and verbal beatings?
If this is what is happening you need to talk to someone or you need to call 911 when it is happening.
It does not matter who is doing this to your grandpa it is important that
1. YOU are safe
2 You help keep grandpa safe.

If it is your grandma it can be as "simple" as she is exhausted and can use some help.
Anyone that takes care of a person with dementia needs help sometime.
We are all human and it is sometimes easy to lose your temper.
But if this is happening to grandpa he is not doing anything on purpose to make someone angry.

I feel bad that you are possibly put in a situation that you should not have to deal with.
You can also contact your local Senior Service Center and ask to talk to a social Worker and explain what is going on. they are trained to help.

Please keep us posted and if you need to ask questions or just vent this is a safe place.

I'm sorry for all the replies, suicide is very upsetting to me, so please, if you are even slightly feeling suicidal, tell someone, which you did, but that someone didn't listen, so tell another someone and keep telling till someone will listen

Rover.com is a dog walking site for a Part time job - Kids in my neighborhood do a Lot of dog walking and It Pays well . Your grand Mom Needs help . Her doctor can get a social worker to have people come in and help Out . Can you go with your grand Mother to her doctors ? and you yourself get a Therapist ? This Must be really hard for you to watch . It Takes a Lot of patience to take care of someone with dementia and to also understand the disease . I do hope you feel Less Lost and Can start setting some goals for yourself . You are alone In this difficult situation so it would be good for the both of you to have therapists .

As Alva said so well in the first sentence of her posting to you, you are learning how tough life can be through your experiences. I am really sorry that you are going through this with your family.

You’re so young. No one should expect you to know how to handle a situation like this without getting outside help. I’m sure that you feel extremely lost, confused and even helpless.

It’s incredibly frustrating not to know where to turn. It’s hard to talk about difficult things to others. It’s painful to discuss our experiences for a number of reasons.

Do not allow anyone to make you feel like you could have prevented any of these occurrences. None of this is your fault and you couldn’t have prevented any of it.

So, please don’t blame yourself for not knowing what to do. You have taken the first step now by reaching out. That is what is most important.

Talk to your school counselor, a teacher or anyone that you trust about your situation. They can lead you in the right direction with going forward with what is the best way to handle this situation.

I wish you all the best and hope that you will find peace, joy and love. There are people who will help you as you navigate through this difficult time in your life.

One day, you will see a young person that is struggling and you will be an example for them that they will be able to make it through their tough situation.

Take care.

The councellor did not do anything when u mentioned you may kill yourself! They are a mandated reporter and should have you talk to the school Phychiatrist. They are suppose to take any talk of suicide seriously. I think I would take that to the Superintendent of your school district. If he does nothing, then to your County Superintendent. That councellor failed you.

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