Over the last couple of months my wife’s anxiety has gotten significantly worse....
We have increased her antidepressant to 20 mg yesterday and are having her tested for UTI tomorrow....
Today has, to date, been the worst....
She started this morning with the accusations and it has literally continued non stop...I didn’t know someone could talk incessantly like that....but it is still going on..
I have tried to maintain my composure but have lost it a couple of times...
I know why it is hard for her....and understand.....but my mind has gone numb listening to it all day....Usually I can get sway for a little bit...but every time I tried to get a break today...it got worse...nothing I tried today has worked....
We though we might have to admit my wife into the Local Senior Behavioral Unit..they have a tendency to use antipsychotic drugs so we decided that it would not be the best thing for her...
The Neurologist pulled her off of the Valium and we start DIVALPROEX SOD DR 500 MG TAB tonight before bedtime....
We discussed CBD products..but no decision...upped her depression meds.....
The first half of today was horrible....
She woke up complaining that her left eye hurt...She already had a Optometrist appointment at 1:45....but she was so frantic about the pain and saying she couldn’t see...I didn’t respond fast enough...in her mind, so...she became very angry..she got so out of control that I lost it....After I pulled it back together I managed to get her in the car...I took her to the optometrist and pleaded with them to see her earlier than her appointment time which was this afternoon...
I was concerned, since 8 weeks ago she had cataract surgery and I wondered that maybe something was really wrong...It turned out to be a bad case of dry eye...which can be very uncomfortable...
Took her home and she wouldn’t let me put the special ointment in her eye...after an hour I finally got a little bit of ointment in her eye...it was just horrible....about 2pm she finally calmed down a little bit....
I try...but sometimes it is so hard to do things right..
We are in a small community and resources are next to none.
I got a lead on a experienced...caregiver....companion....and she is coming by tomorrow to meet my wife and see if she might be able to help out...
I sure hope it works out...my wife and I both need this.
I had to call 911 and have her taken to the er.....
She was approved for the Senior Behavioral Unit...but no rooms were available....
But on a positive note...they found a uti this time...we may have a root cause....I asked why this wasn’t discovered last Friday....and there is no way to know...maybe it wasn’t bad enough to be detected...
So I brought her home....
I texted the potential caregiver that I was going to interview at noon today and we rescheduled for tomorrow...
I haven’t met her in person yet...but I can already see that she is amazing...hope it works out...
I will be praying that it works out well for you guys.
That should be less expensive than the LPN or costing less than an LPN would be a CNA.
We are 4 days into the 7 days of the antibiotic treatment....
I really don’t see much of a difference...This morning started..again with my wife accusing me of stealing and she said she was going to call the police...This was not done in a mild tone of voice..and it goes on most of the day...she is obsessed with her things being stolen or damaged...right now...if something isn’t right...it has to mezzz
Even if someone distracts her...she comes back to the same subject.
She has said she will kill whoever is stealing her things...this has been said more than one time
This is quite alarming...
My hope is we can redirect the anger...but I have my doubts
So happy that she is getting better now the UTI is better.
Just saying. I'm sorry you and she are going through this. Best thoughts for your wife and hope you can get some rest and respite soon.
You are in my prayers.
I reviewed my wife’s symptoms with the caregiver....which have always been confusing to me...since they don’t follow the standard progression of the disease...at least based on my research...
I explained that my wife has an iq of 130+ and is an expert at manipulation...and described her confusing symptoms...After she has spent time with her....she said that during out first discussion she really didn’t understand what I was observing and now she understands and that in all her years of experience she had never witnessed a Alzheimers patient exhibiting her combination of symptoms...
I describe it as selective short term memory....For example my wife obsesses over certain things all day....immediately picks up the same thoughts the next....she picks up right where she left off....Last night when she tried to turn me against the caregiver ( making up stories).... she immediately started on the same subject the next morning...Typically with short term memory loss she should forget...
I have many other examples.....that I can list...along with typical symptoms...
I think it is related to her high iq...which means she has the ability to move selected short term memories immediately into long term memory...(whereas the process of moving a short term memory to long term typically occurs after the memory is repeated, the learning process, another method is event related, such as memory related to an important event in your life, it moves to long term memory almost automatically)
Has anyone experienced this?
It is confusing....I can never figure out what she will remember....
My dad has a selective memory as well, I think that he is always scheming how to get what he wants. It is frustrating that he usually only remembers new stuff that makes him mad or upset.
I don't know who I will be talking to when I speak with him.
So you are correct, she is using her brain to get her way. Not like this isn't tough enough.
She finally said yes to a bath but wouldn’t let me wash her hair.
I still can’t figure out how she stores new memories....The caregiver is back Monday....somehow we have to get my wife to like her...I need the break and my wife needs a companion she likes otherwise it just creates more stress..
Then the sneaky stuff like.. let's wash your hands in the bathroom. You could sit there. We could wash your top half too... maybe we could use this tap/hose to wash off the soap? Different things will work for different people... What's this apple scented stuff here? Apples for your hair - how funny! Let's try some. My sister is special needs, so simple jokes work for her.
My Mum is a no no no person - everything is no. And anxious about everything too. Calls out if Dad in another room. Dad did manage to get her to agree to put clean clothes on to visit her sister but too much asking & fluffing around for me. In rehab, as soon as she was safely on the shower commode with staff, I bagged up the dirties & lay clean clothes out. A bit of yelling afterwards when she saw the switch... she would insist she would wear the dirty ones so sometimes I had to end the visit then & march out with the bag (poor staff..). I finally got the reason: she was worried the staff would lose her clothes. At home now, she worries the constant washing will wear them out & outside drying will fade. Oh & moths will get them in the wardrobe. They are just some of her thoughts we know about... probably a zillion other thoughts driving her behaviour...
My hat is off to you (& my Dad) & the patience needed for homecare 24/7.
it is nearly impossible to divert my wife’s attention...”it’s her way or the highway”...
What ever it is ....she will get angry about it...
When she gets fixated like this...nothing seems to work..
The caregiver is trying to figure this our...
As hard as it is, sometimes we have to go out and let the caregiver do their job and know that no matter how upset she is that she is safe and cared for. You matter in this marriage as well, please get your breaks so you can be the best you can be.
There was a dual purpose for getting a caregiver....relief for me is one but mainly I wanted a companion for my wife...to give her some happiness...