I have grown so tired of hearing my names spoken in her voice. The voice of dementia. Each day as caregiver for my mother increase my desire to become someone else. To leave everything behind and start fresh. To change even the name she gave me . . . the name that never really fit me to begin with.
The woman’s making me hate my own name.
Just for kicks Gremlin...what would your new name be?! Love that idea. A New Day.
I feel bad when I get like that... :(
I always thought I had patience - well I do, but I think I have a 'low score.'
my mom is in assisted living so I know it makes it easier.
I probably not going to reinvent myself too much. I think I will sleep better - at least I hope I can. I feel like I have aged quicker over the last 8 years.
sounds like you need a good break - have you tried any resources for that?
edit: I dream of going camping in the mountains or at the beach.
Reinventing myself? Well, I signed up for a CNA class that starts in October. I had wanted to take a class while caring for Mom but never got the time off to do it (plus I was too exhausted). After the class and getting my certification, I'm mulling over getting a part-time job in a nursing home or home health.
Reinvent myself? Well, I’m not sure. My caregiving duties will most likely end when my husband passes away. No matter how big a pain in my a$$ he is, I’d rather do what I’m doing now than live as his widow, you know? I suppose I will reinvent to some degree. But there’s only so much I’ll be able to do with very limited funds and energy.
If Imagining your life as someone new and exciting gets you through the day, then for sure go with It! Whatever gets you through! For the time being, though, seek out a support group in your area.