I just find myself wishing that with this disease and plus all the other things that come along with the decline.....WHY? I just wish God would call her home so she and her family would not have to deal with this. AND I feel guilty, but I do not know how much longer I can mentally and physically deal with it. I hear and see her on a daily basis and I HATE the disease....I am so sad and lonely. It is as if you lose family, friends, and all your life to this disease. My husband takes over when he gets home, but by then I am on edge and sick from being around her all the time. I love her...but this disease makes me angry, sad, and lonely. I take good care of her, but I still wish God would take her home before she forgets who we all are altogether. Does anyone else feel these feelings? I feel guilty for wanting God to take her, but she really is not hear anyway...Just once in a blue moon now she is what you might say ok...Most days are bad....Do you feel this way? Am I normal with my feelings?
My mother passed in May 2010 and I also asked for God to end her suffering, and it happened (on my birthday, at 6am). I was sad, but also relieved! I knew her pain was over, I knew I did all I could for her, spend time with her, listened to her when she could still speak, and even sat with her hour on end, happily!
Her life was long (90), not always easy, but she was loved by all. Try not to concentrate on the one day when her life ended, but on all the amazing days she was alive.
Nonamecaregiver: what you are feeling is normal, lonely, sad, tired, frustrated, cut off from everything else that you know, and it is normal for us not to want to see our loved ones in pain,or suffering in anyway. So make their life (and yours) as pleasant as you, get help don't try to do it on your own, and don't forget to ASK for help. Most relatives will not just offer to help, you have to ask. And you should!
You have a wonderful group of supportive people here. Post, read, share and prepare yourself for what will come. You are not alone in your feelings. God bless you for all that you are doing. You won't regret anything you do with love.
i hear ya about siblings runin off and hide . and they find tons of excuses not to help . my kids and hubby helps me when i hollar , in fact my son is comin over sunday so i could go to graduation parties . i love my kids :-) when they help you it tells u they re a blessing and very important person . one day we will reward them when they need help .
italian- what did the dr say to u after u broke down bawling and pour ur heart out to the doc ? did he offer u antidepression meds ?
i have been offered but never took em . am lit chicken .