I put my mom in AL after my brother passed away. Middle stage ALZ. Dad passed Jan 2018. Brother who lived at home passed that July (drinking). My mom needed a walker. I have too many stairs. Split level home. She loves (loved) her AL. Went on outings. Has friends. Did more there then she did at home with my dad (she was extremely depressed when she found out what she had). Now she’s deteriorating. I thought by time she was ready for memory care she would be more advanced and unaware. I feel horrible everyday for not having her with me. But that would mean a live in aid 24hr a day since she tries to walk without her walker. My husband and I work full time. She will go from saying she wants to live with to she doesn’t. We sold her house and using that money for her care. After three years if we run out she will be eligible for Medicaid. Not sure what I’m asking but just want to know if anyone can relate?
See this for what it is: the only answer for her safety & well being. Go visit her whenever you like and maintain the daughter relationship with her instead of the stressed out care giver relationship where you'd be frustrated quite often. Then you'd REALLY have something to feel guilty for!!
Best of luck!
I am sorry for your pain. Please allow yourself to feel human happiness in your own life. There are moments I have to almost physically pull myself back from thinking about it all and say "No! It isn't about Dee right now. I already thought about all that. It's about me now." Give yourself a bit of time. You deserve that.