I got the call late last night, (but haven't yet told my kids) that my mother passed away. They saw her last Friday when she was hospitalized, (& knew the Dr expected her to die). But I can't get myself to make that phone call to tell them she has died. I know I have to, but I'd like to wait a few more days. (Not sure what sense that makes though). 😰
Just call your child who understands you best. Have a cry with him or her and ask that child to call the others.
Is someone with you? It sounds as though you are in a bit of shock right now. (((((Hugs))))))
I am sorry for your loss.
Please tell all your kids immediately. It is important for them to know. This happened once in my family ... it is better for them to know ASAP. They may feel unimportant, angry and confused (not supportive) if they find out from another source. I understand that you do not have the energy to deal with their anger/confusion in addition to grieving.
If you are unable emotionally to make the call, task one of your children or a friend (like cwillie wrote). Just don’t let any more time pass.
Take care of you right now.
You know your kids, so only you can know how this will be received.
We can do these things even when we are still in shock. They give us a roadmap. Perhaps talk to a clergyman or trusted friend about your grief. Read a book called 'In the Presence of Grief' by Dorothy Becvar, a clinician who had lost her own son.
Grief is draining though: it can only be done in small doses at a time. You must then rest and revisit it when the wave comes, and it does come in waves.
During your rest periods, occupy yourself with the logistics of the ritual of the funeral. Notices, obituaries, flowers, music, eulogy, these things are actually a respite from the rumination and waves of sadness. When the time is right you will call your children. For now you are in survival mode, so take care of yourself. You need to eat and you need to sleep, and yes even a walk daily if you can.
If you're a believer, prayer can be a tremendous comfort. If not, that's OK too.
You will always have your memories of her, they are like those of no one else.
No one can take them from you. Perhaps write about them if you can. Using all of your senses will help you to better incorporate the loss and begin to process it. Take good care of yourself, accept help from others. God bless you and know that I am very, very sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and healing thoughts.
My question is...are u not having a Funeral? And if so won't ur children want to be there.
They need to know. I know its upsetting. Maybe call one and ask that they call the others.
Take it one day at a time. ❤️