60 yrs with a mother- raging NPD with histrionics's, foul mouth woman, plus her mother, just like her. THEY HATED each other!
I had them both raging for the first 40 yrs of my life until my grandmother died. In my mind that 100 yrs of living-listening to them shred anything and everything good in this world.
Not talking family turmoil, we are talking Courts, police, lawyers, Soc Serv. Elder Protective people....signing my name to things... that kinda stuff. EXPENSIVE, time consuming, very embarrassing stuff. This is just the last straw.
5-2-19... She was on the phone and didn't hear me come in. I stood behind her listening to her tell someone how she was "going to crush that little B** into the ground before I die! She's rotten, people think she is wonderful but no one knows her like I do, I'll ruin her!" I hit record on my phone- 11min and 9 seconds I am done. I walked out. She doesn't know I have recorded it. I sent my son an email telling him I was done and I asked for his support in enforcing a no contact request to leave her to her own devices to stew for a few days. ( did not mention the recording.)True to form, she took to the telephone and called elder services and said her daughter left her without any food at 91 yrs old. They did a scheduled home visit. Sure enough, very little sustainable food was in her house. They contacted our son. He jumped right in taking her to grocery store, etc...she won that battle. I KNEW there was a full load of grocery's in that house- 4 carriages full days before. Thank God for receipts!
She then schedules Dr appts and NEEDS him to take her ( SHE calls dr and makes appt..."for pain") and then pain is gone. Eye exams, - unneeded- she has 2 lens in her eyes. Hearing aide appt. Dr checks the record and says you have new ones, where are they- he called me to see if they were lost, b/c I put insurance on them. She gets away with this crap! He think she forgets! I bump into her maintenance man- he asked if mom still has bugs? She called maintenance and he found nothing, pulled her stove and fridge, checked cabinets. Said the place was immaculate ( no kidding, I do it!) She insisted HE cleaned out her cabinets AND fridge and threw everything in the dumpster! It clicked! thats what happened to the food! I asked when, May 7th, before Elder Service visit! In the mean time, my son is thinking- mom left her without food? Mom walked away from her medical needs? Maybe what she is telling him is true about Mom? Maybe mom is messing up. She is playing him just like she plays everyone. Sweet, little ole lady, until....No appt on the schedule, food PACKED into cabinets and fridge... sweet lil ole gram! My son says I should forgive and forget, she is 91, time is short- its family, dont have regrets, she forgets, take the higher road mom, she is just lonely, she misses you, she wants YOU to apologize for walking out on her and then everything will be fine. I'm about ready to play that recording- hear her call me a F*** C*** loud and clear! stole 100K- wrote ck 10K casino husband a drunk, hits me, I poisoned her food- lab test said it was contaminated compost material. 11 min of non stop, rapid fire, fowl mouth venom. I cant do this, nor let him get dragged into it.
I just saved her from her first 'crisis'. Broken hip, Bleeding peptic ulcer and pneumonia , incontinence with Afib (all in one hospital visit!) I fixed her 1st story for her and a caregiver to live safely and comfortably: Grab bars installed, auto lights at front of house, Yard clean-up, two new smoke Detectors and a CM detector, Supplies, major house clean because of blood vomit and fecal matter in places, carpet clean, Hospital Bed, Caregiver bed, etc . .etc. Took me 7 trips and 2 months (600 miles each RT) to get all this done.
Begging me to get her out of re-hab and get her home, she allowed me to use her $$ to get everything done in her home. I did spend about $1000+ of my OWN $ for fuel, and some of the supplies I got at Costco for her. Once she got home and comfortable, including me helping her with her 2018 taxes, all her 'stuff' was taken care of , she turns on me. Called the police on me one day, accused me of stealing or DL and keys. Ok . .so I put them in a safe place in her office desk drawer.. I told her I did that. OMG! her world came to an end at that moment. She was in no shape to drive and she knew it. The good news is the police officer told me I did the right thing , 'it just didn't work'. So we disabled her car.
She has no will, no Trust, I have no POA - I don't care. Since HIPPA stands in my way, she is on her own. I watch from a distance at the moment. I'll call once in while and chat for a very short time. As soon as she starts in on me - I tell her the conversation is over. My husband refuses to talk to her now, because of the way she has treated me. Her best friends are now keeping their distance to a degree because of her 'cattiness' and irrational behavior. She talks bad about other friends too. Yet, no one can diagnose her incompetent. She's just a mean, narcissistic delusional woman. Even the caregivers cried a few times - she called them 'stupid'!
I can't get her to go to psych eval. Her doctor wont evaluate her. I'm stuck. And so is she. She's changed all the locks to keep me out now. ' Fine with me mom! I have no desire to visit you as long as you treat me like a criminal.'
She lives in a 3300 sq ft. 2 story home all by her lonesome. She's a shut-in. She refuses to sell the house and 'downsize' and threatens to kill herself every time someone mentions AL. She still hold's a valid driver's license too.
She's a fall risk. I'm sure there are some other risks as well. But I can't do a damn thing about it at the moment. I do have a plan though. I have retained an attorney. And I'm prepared, when the right time comes to call APS. Or , we just wait for the next crisis!
No guilt here.
A lack of planning on her part, does not constitute a sacrifice on my part.
My husband and myself come first along with our business and our home.
'Sorry mom. you asked for this. I don't need your money, or your nastiness. You're on your own just like you want to be!'
Sorry for the rant of a reply. I needed to let that out. Thanks for sharing your story. You are definitely not alone!
Please make a copy of it.
People like this play so underhanded and dirty you never know what they will do next.
I would record the maintenance mans experience as well or direct APS to him. Think of the time she wastes for the world at large. No. Scratch that. Try not to.
Thank God you are out of it. Count it as a blessing.
Tell your son you wish he could learn from your mistakes. But step back and don’t muddy the waters for him. He will soon see on his own that he is no match for her. I do agree it’s best for you to let it go so you can move on but easier said than done I’m sure.
The problem with protecting our children from something is that they then have no valid experience of their own to draw on.
Sooner or later LIFE will catch up with her. It does with all.
Now how can you take better care of you? Focus on that.
Come here to vent. As you see there are others who have some idea of what you’ve been through but do try to let it go so you can have some peace in your life.
We care.
Mother has 6 children, 3 boys, 3 girls. Mom had her faves.
She had her good moments and bad. Sadly, many, many more bad. "discipline' was constant threats of suicide, from as long ago as I can remember, and we lived in our 'little house' until I was 8--and that's where I learned what the word meant.
I'm 62. No babe in the woods. I've really tried to put the 'crap' with mother behind me, but inevitably I do something wrong (very often, I've done nothing wrong, just misspoke, or cleaned something and then didn't put it away where it belonged--you know, 'unforgiveable' stuff.
4 weeks ago I had to go tell her I have cancer. A NORMAL mother would have shown some emotion--blink of the eyes, a slight tear. Nothing. Then she said 'Oh your daddy will be SO GLAD to see you again". WTH? I am not dying. Not any time soon anyway. THIS is her takeaway? I said "Well, gotta run."
I begin to share with friends and finally do the big jump to FaceBook so I could just get it out there.....over 200 people have messaged me, send cards, come to visit--just offered the kind of support you need in a time like this. I don't even think about mother, this is just her. (She turned 90, or maybe 89 last week. I sent her a card. No gift nor visit as I had a surgery on my neck remove a golf ball size lymph node that day. (She knew) Dh offers to call her and I said "I'm off her radar, just leave it".
Making dinner last Friday and she calls me (this would call #10 in the last 40+ years) "OMG! OMG! I have been calling all the hospitals in the valley! I couldn't find ANYONE ANYWHERE to tell me if you were OK!!" (By this point I have her on speaker as I was laughing so hard. "Mother!!! Stop talking. This is beyond ridiculous! You and I both know you made no such phone calls and you LIVE in a house with 7 adults!" (brother's kids grow you but never move away--they have 4 daughters still at home in their late 20's-mid thirties).
I wasn't hurt, not really---just amazed at the kind of behavior she is 'allowed'. My brother will not get her evaluated for cognitive issues--just for a baseline---and my other sibs don't care. I used to care, and to used to care for her on a regular basis. After this ridiculous and hurtful drama--I'm done.
I told her the names of all the people on FB (including her) who can look in there and see if I have updated anything. Said with 7 adults in the house she should be able to get one of them to talk to her.
You were incredibly SMART to make that recording. Make more and keep them.
Walk away. It really can be that easy.
Up to your son as to what kind of relationship she has with him. My mother adores 2-3 of her grandkids and none of the greats even know who she is. You have to give love to get love--and frankly, love it what it is. Nobody owes you any. But good kind people--generally bring love wherever they go and spread it around. Narcissistic people eat up all the love and joy and leave dusty clown tchotchkes.
Be done with that nasty, mean old lady! No “mother” would talk about her children that way. Just because she is your egg donor doesn’t mean a thing. Lots of animals have babies, raise them, then leave for good. Take a cue from that.
I believe you should copy your recorded conversation (‘cause she might grab your phone and break it or try to erase it) then, at least play it for your son. He has the right to know where you’re coming from and listening to that would set him straight.
I grew up with verbal abuse from my alcoholic Dad. (Called a whore at 10 years old, among other things). Mother was a narcissist who drank too much also. (“You’d be so pretty IF you did your hair differently and lost some weight).
Dad died with a clear mind but Mom got Alzheimer’s. She had the landlord call APS, telling them I threw her on the floor and stole her meds. I am an only child and was helping her daily but that pushed me over the edge. She phoned them a 2nd time to say I stole her meds again. When the Social Worker got there, her meds were on the coffee table! I was later cleared of any wrong doing by APS. (They never contacted me!) They could tell she had dementia.
That was when enough was enough, into a Memory Care facility she went.
I can forgive my mom because her brain was broken from dementia (however it was characteristic of her NPD.) But, if your mom has no dementia, then get the heck outa’ there and leave her to the other family members.
You served your time, your shift is permanently over and you have punched out for the last time! ⏰
Now go do something wonderful for yourself (like a 🚢 cruise or a massage 💆🏻♀️ with pedi and mani 💅🏼 , makeup 💄 and a new outfit 👗) or something else wonderful. And leave the past in the past.
I’m sorry we grew up that way but at least we aren’t like them! Hallelujah! 💃🏼🙏🏼
It's not easy, and people don't/won't understand but you have to take care of yourself and no one deserves that kind of abuse.
I would play that tape for anyone who will listen. Or just let it go and move on so you don't have to keep reliving that horrible experience.
He already is. In it, I mean. Hadn't you better, with as little rancour as you possibly can, let him hear the truth of it?
He can still love his grandmother. There's nothing to say that only nice, well-adjusted people get love, and certainly not that only nice little old ladies should get the help they do need. But he deserves to know what's true, and then he can make his choices without being made a fool of.
And so can you. Your mother is 91, and if this is what she is like then boy! - does she need help. That does not mean that you can be expected to provide it, or that you're the best person for the job.
And you? How are you? This is a big deal, you must be feeling terribly shaken.
No of her 2 familial allies have not offered to take her in and she won't go anyway-they would then know what I know. Actually they already do but the old standby 'she is your mother' Basically I have been told to just put up with, ignore it, go to my bedroom. And the best one is take meds for my stress. ha! So, I have and guess what...same old same old. As long as they don't have to hear gory details -it's all good, right?
Not trying to hijack your discussion, but being here helps me to know I'm not the only daughter going through this with the npd Mom. I am stuck though because she is living with me and is taking pleasure in making me squirm. I can't reason and I can (never could) do enough, say the right thing enough ever. And I am getting close to being done. Sometimes, I am sorry to say-I don't know what the point is in all of this. If I were gone she could stay in my house. I am sure the relatives would help her remain here. Positive of it. With that thought I just want to run away-FROM MY OWN HOUSE. It's craziness.
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