My father (83) died on August 31, after nearly 30 years of severe, debilitating illness that got worse year after year. By the end neither he nor my mother had much of a life. The vast majority of their time was spent sleeping, eating, or hanging out on the Internet.
I should add that both parents had mental health issues (mostly untreated) throughout my life. I sometimes realize that I'm not grieving the loss of my Dad because in many ways I feel that I lost both of them back when I was a teenager.
Life has not been easy for Mom.
The first week without Dad seemed to go pretty well. Mom seemed to come alive, keeping busy, going through and trying to organize what has become a near hoarding situation. Now she's back to her old routine but without the need to at least minimally take care of Dad's (as a side-effect, some of her own) needs. She mostly sleeps. Mostly eats Taco Bell and Jack-in-the-Box tacos. She's bathed twice (that I'm aware of) both times at my urging. In short, nothing has improved for her, but nothing seems worse.
She lives in a nice home my husband and I own. Within the next several months we'll need for her to move out and on to the next place. The most practical thing would be for her to live with us -- but she is already 100% dependent on me for emotional support, and mostly dependent on us for financial support. I, also, would like to be able to live my own life without the constant, heartbreaking worry about my parents (now parent), though. For myself, as much as my mother, I so very much want her to have a happy ending to her life. She has SO much promise and any time at all on this Earth is a blessing, really. I know I can help distract her unhappiness. But that is different than knowing she is happy.
With the recent escalations in rent all over the country, she can no longer afford to live by herself on Dad's social security payment alone. If I am able to get back to work making even half of my previous salary I'd be happy to pay for an independent or assisted living place for her, if it meant she would actually socialize and create a life for herself. I am honestly uncertain if she can or should live alone without our support (even if she could afford it -- or we paid for it) in her own place.
She tells me she doesn't like to expose herself to new people because she doesn't want anybody to "need" her. She is actually a funny, sweet, loving and very artistic person who is just wasting away.
Any suggestions on how I can help her (she's also INCREDIBLY stubborn) out of her shell and nudge her (successfully) towards living her own life? I'm not working at the moment so money is tight for my husband and I just want to do what's best for Mom.
What is the rush? Let mom catch her breath.
We didn't push her. We helped box and manage dad's things and moved her bedroom into his and made her apartment a little more 'her' than like a hospital room.
Slowly she eased out of 'mourning' started going to swim group, BINGO, just having a life. I know she felt guilt at being happy--but she deserved the years she had to 'herself'.
When her own health took a turn--she slowly went downhill, but she did get about 14 really 'fun' years. She didn't travel at all or do any of the things we thought she'd do--she simply shopped and lunched and played. She made a lot of good friends, and outlived all of them.
She died one month ago today--and looking back--I am so glad we never had to have that 'mom, we need to put you in care' decision.
Some people 'come alive' after they've lost a loved one (esp when the care has been long and arduous). Some stay in the rut of feeling trapped that caregiving can cause. I'd encourage mom to look around and see what resonates with HER. ANd give her time, because, well, he life has just done a 180 and that's hard at any age.
Also, she may actually be feeling guilty that she DOESN'T miss dad as much as she thinks she should. That's a whole other discussion!
If I understand your post, she's been this way for decades, if not all her life. She's also lost her life partner as well as her purpose -- caring for him -- and that's not a small thing. Old habits are hard to break, and caring for your dad while living with his illness has been a decades-long habit.
As others have said, give her some time, as her reality is very new and will take time to adjust to. I also don't recommend working just to pay for her to be in a facility, but if that would bring you some peace of mind and your own finances are OK, then maybe it isn't a completely bad option. Whether she chooses to interact with others is her choice, and that's not what you should try to orchestrate.
Sometimes, I think, a person 'becomes' introverted and scared of life b/c she's lived that way for so long.......taking care of a sick husband and hiding out in the house waiting for the 'other shoe to drop' for so long. Now it's dropped. You said she's creative and artistic, loving, and wasting away. Maybe she needs to SEE up close and personal a new way of life in order to imagine herself LIVING that lifestyle. You know what I mean?
That's my idea.
I feel a little confused by your post. You want to help her yet are worried about money. I understand that. I just think you should try for the most realistic goals. If she goes to AL she will need to bathe more. That can be with assistance.
Maybe you could figure out from the various options what is most ideal while also being manageable that can benefit both of you while being most affordable. I hope you can all arrive at the best decision.
You have casually mentioned that your Mom is having trouble finding her marriage certificate. Can you help her more in the research and execution of getting your Dad’s estate finalized? For instance, get the extra tax forms, life insurance completed? She should talk, yes, talk, to Social Security as she will get a small one time lump sum to help with funeral costs as well as do what paperwork is needed to get a bigger Social Security check now that your Dad is gone.
Once you are close to getting all of that completed, then it would be time to talk about what she wants and can afford. You will know it’s time when she begins to part with your Dad’s clothes and personal goods.
If you feel a need to go do something else in the meantime, start researching care facilities for your Mom. Each is different and only some will allow reduced income residents. Don’t ask her to come along quite yet as it appears too soon.
Let her take her time. It will be maddening to you, however, he’s only been gone a month.
The larger facilities will offer activities that artistic people like to do.
Needy people can be draining...............let mom know that you feel the same way.
I don’t have an answer, only to say it is too soon for your Mom, not even a month, give her time.
Most would reflect, want some privacy, peace.
Sadness is normal, society thinks we should be ready to resume our lives and views mourning as something we should get over with. Staying dignified for days and receiving people with stoicism is expected.
I saw other cultures where women are crying and screaming and express their emotions freely, some are wearing black clothing all their lives. That is extreme as far as our culture is concerned. There should be not guilt and resuming life would be ideal. Some will thru lots of mourning some not, as with traditional view it was a year of mourning, I don’t think anybody will expect that, but, a month is too short to be well
adjusted, unless somebody made plans or has ideas how to proceed with life as single person.
Give her time, encouraged some hygiene, maybe some walking, fresh air, self care, take her to hairdresser for example, good nutrition and few visits from family and friends.
I also think she may be depressed.
Rather than move in with you (and I am sure you will get LOTS of comments on that) Look into Assisted Living or other Senior housing for her.
She may do better with people and activities around her that she can get involved in.
Many sites and information say that a person should make no major changes after a stressful event. The death of a spouse is high on that list.
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