It is Christmas day and I am trying so hard not to cry and just be grateful that I have my mother with me dementia and all. Jusst enough food for her to eat. I will eat ceral and smoke cigarettes! Invited to a friends house but cant leave my mother alone,dont have a car so I cant take her out too cold. She is up in her room staring at a picture of her mother and father, crying. Thats the only memory she can see because her other 2 children have not come to see her and I have no pictures. I have no life,job,money or real friends. My daughter has not ccome to take us to her house for dinner but I guess she has her own family and life. How long can I indure this? Am I gonna ever be happy? Am I ever gonna get on my feet. I cant give presents to my grandchildren but I think they understand. God has already written my path, I just hope I dont leave this worl before I see what happiness he has in store for me. I am so lonley, and my mom is too but I cant even help her get through because I cant help myself get through.
family a "right" that don't have to "go through the "job" of having to visit. Now, I have made the choice, kinda, to work the holidays so I do provide goodness to these people's loved ones, but it does take me away from my own family. I have the luxury of going home after work...but rarely do they wait for me to start the festivities. I know it's a trade off, but focus on what you have....& you have the best because you have God's love and care. Bless you as you travel through this difficult time.
merry go away, an an extended dont come back. lol
Wondering how difficult it might be, to be online tomorrow, for those who cannot gather any other way? I am so thankful for finding supportive people, this group, and having internet to get there! OTherwise, I would have let depression take me away.
All your suggestions are great! I am thankful for everyone here!
IF that is all I had, it is still more valuable than anything one could get from a store, or any food that could be eaten.
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I understand how you feel, and I also keep trying to tell myself that it is just another day, I also didn't expect anything other than this.
So, I officially consider you my Family for this day, and I am happy to wish you and your mom the best of wishes for the season and for the new year! My mom and i are watching TV also, and i just noticed that it might snow here tonight which is odd for this area. Have a pleasant, quiet, and warm night, and give your mom a kiss for me when she goes to sleep, Love, Ted.
I am no longer 'going through this ' I am on the other side. My mother passed away over 6 months ago (May 7th), may she rest in peace.
Be kind to yourself Denise, sit with your mother even if she is crying, and help her by giving her some peace knowing that there is someone there for her! It will make you feel better I assure you.
Join a FREECYCLE group (on yahoo) in your area. Ask for things that you need, look at the things that are offered, and ask for help! Check Craigslist for things that are being offered for free in your area. You will see that there are MANY people that want to help.
Check with elder services in your area for help for food and even other benefits. Keep looking. Use your computer to find things. Get coupons, enter contests that don't require any purchase.
God bless you Denise, and your mother.
God bless you... and just know that there are those of us who truly care.
Please call them... talk to them... tell them your story. There are people that care. Believe, I am one of them.