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My therapist used to have me go through 'what does' scenarios. "what does a loved and cherished daughter feel like? Can I achieve that when I am NOT that?

What does a childhood without abuse feel like? Can I overcome the past traumas or are they 'who I am?. I'm not doing a good job at explaining what she said to me. She has me create in my mind a 'healthy' version of myself. I don't naturally have one!

It's a slow and often painful process. Like healing from a deep physical wound. You heal, there may or may not be a deep scar, or there may be no signs. The challenge is to get to a place where the scars are not what defines you.

And NEVER giving up.

I have only just realized I do not have to take insults, meanness, disrespect or actual hatred from anyone. I can walk away. Sometimes that is what you have to do. Even with family, who should be our BFF's---but they can hurt us more than anyone else.
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ventingisback Nov 2022
Thanks a lot! This is really helpful! I’ll ask myself the same questions, and remind myself of the same things.
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Many of us have abusive, narcissistic parents.

Some of us go on to lead successful lives. Others are destroyed. I guess it depends on - how bad - the abuse was. And there’s an element of luck. And determination, to overcome and heal from the abuse.

Many years ago, I made a promise to myself. I haven’t fulfilled the promise yet. Never had a chance to do it. I’ll do it now. And I’ll re-post when I’ve fulfilled it.
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One way I’m trying to heal is by looking at the effects of verbal abuse, and seeing:
(1) Do I have that problem?
(2) What am I going to do about it?

Potential effects of abuse on the victim:
—low self-esteem
—depression
—anxiety
—physical symptoms
—stress eating
—time wasted
—lost opportunities because your energy and time are spent on healing
—you start believing the abuser’s lies
—you start losing yourself. You miss your former self. You miss YOU.
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Codependents Anonymous helps me. Sometimes there's a history of toxic behavior that gets worse with age or infirmity. It may have been there for a long time and you are now recognizing it.

I didn't realize how bad things were, because I thought all families were like ours. Now I'm learning how to recognize healthy people and set boundaries with toxic ones. It helps to be around people who have been through similar situations and can tell you that you are Not crazy and Not unreasonable. A lot of us are caregivers, too.

CoDA has meetings in person and online. If people hang around after the meeting, stick around. I get just as much benefit after the meeting as I do during the meeting. It's like a 2 for 1 bonus.
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ventingisback Nov 2022
Great idea, thanks!
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What would a healed Venting look and feel like? Strive for that. You’ll get there!
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ventingisback Nov 2022
Thanks! I’ll try that!
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I didn't have one, but often counseling is needed if this represents a lifetime of abuse. We can carry that forward and we can suffer all our lives if it isn't addressed with professionals who are good at what they do. We get trained to expect abuse, and we create the same situations for ourselves long after the loved one is gone because we cannot forgive their human limitations and move on, building a good life for ourselves. I wish you good healing and a happy life. For me this is my one chance at it, and I won't give up a happy productive life. Please consider getting help.
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ventingisback Nov 2022
Thanks a lot!
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