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My mother 87 lived by herself and was getting to the point where she couldn't clean her house or go shopping etc. for herself. She was having problems with my sitter at the time, and still is. She got very ill with the shingles and called go us to come get her, so my husband went to pick her up and stay with us for a few days. She got worse so we ended up at the ER, then in the hospital, after a week stay and blood transfusion we came home. Soon after we got home, she wanted to move in with us, so we let that happen, not thinking about how it was going to affect our lives or the outcome. I was on board with the decision, but my husband and daughter were on the edge, but we never discussed this with mom because of her condition. After 9 months later we had problems with my 62yr old sister who continued to ask mom for money. Mother feels sorry for her and gives her money. Mom has a split personality at times she can be nice and loving and other times she can have a argumentative and aggressive personality. Mom can barely walk or get up and down. I used a Hoyer lift on her many times. All of this begin to drive a wedge between me, my family. There are lots of things that I can't write at this time that has caused lots of resentment and anger. I started losing weight and having some health problems. My husband was about to snap and so I asked mom if she would go and stay with my sister or my ex sister in law for a while. She chose my sister. Neither one can get along with the other. They’re always fighting. She calls me every day crying and wanting to know why went wanted her to leave. She says she feels like we just threw her out on the streets. My nerves are to the max I can't eat, and I cry a lot because I feel so bad about her situation and I have tried to tell her sometimes families just can't live together. She feels like my husband and daughter hate her and schemed something up to get her out. I am on the verge of a breakdown. I asked her today if I she would be willing to go to a nursing home or If I found her another place to live would she leave and she said no, she has already made a commitment to stay with her. But she hates being there because of the way my sister does. I don't know what else I can do. I love her with all my heart. What would anyone suggest I do? Nerve wrecked.

I’d back off and let your sister handle things for a while. You did your time.

Old timers are unhappy. There is nothing you can do to restore their health, happiness, friendships and relationships with people who have passed.

Limit how many times a day you accept your mother’s phone calls.

You did NOT throw her on the streets. She is living with her daughter.

Stop trying to solve her problems which are mostly unsolvable. She is old, infirmed and unhappy.
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You gotta get mom in a facility, it's the only hope for you and your family to find peace

I will say, putting someone in a facility, is never my go to answer, like many on this forum say it often, rightly so, but it's not my first solution, so when I say it , I don't feel there is any other choice here

Even with your mom in a facility, it's going to be hard for you.

Trust me I've been where you are , there is life after caregiver burnout, there is hope and joy, and peace.

It may take some time to pull yourself out of the whole, you dug yourself in.

You have to put you first, your happiness, your mental and physical health. Your family second, meaning your husband and children. Your mom has to be third .

If you can afford to get counseling, we here have much good advice, and many good, self help books advice.

1 find a way to get mom in a facility, this is not sustainable for you and your family

2 get yourself counseling

3 read everything you can on here about things that relate to you.

4 meditation, mindfullness

5 Even if you are or are not a person of faith, or an alcoholic, read and read the "Serenity Prayer"

6 learn new praise, " let go let God"
" Let the cookies crumble" what ever helps you at the moment your in.

7 learn and tell yourself over and over , not to have guilt, you didn't make mom old, you didn't cause this, you have nothing to feel guilty for.
Guilt is often grief , manifested and feels like guilt. Grief of watching the mom you new, disappear right before your eyes. Accept that it's greif not guilt, and go through the grieving process.

I promise, life can be good again!!

Best of luck Butterfly, you are not alone anymore, there are many many people here that have been where you are.
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Anxietynacy Oct 3, 2024
As for the not eating well, I can also relate to that. Drink boost in between meals, eat when your hungry, eat what you can, doesn't have to be healthy, just eat.

For some strange reason, going to the chiropractor, massage's, and acupuncture helps me with my lack of appetite, when I'm stressed.
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The hard part is over. She’s out of your house. Now just don’t let her back in, even “temporarily” for any reason. It’s not your problem to make anyone else happy. She belongs in a facility of some sort if she is unable to live alone.
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Please understand that she requires more care than you can give her. Your family is a priority, your husband and daughter. This doesn't mean you don't love and care about your Mom. But caring for her in your home is unsustainable. Just the fact that she thinks your husband and daughter "schemed" is a sign that she suffers from paranoia, and may be an early symptom of dementia. She seems to have no empathy for you (loss of empathy is also a symptom of dementia).

It doesn't seem she is very mobile (since you said you have to use a hoyer lift for her)... so maybe she can be assessed as needing LTC by her doctor? If so Medicaid covers LTC if she also qualifies financially. This may be your best solution, if you accept it as such.

But: does your Mom have a PoA assigned? You can find a solution for her but if she refuses it, someone in your family may been to pursue guardianship to be able to manage her affairs and make decisions in her own best interests.
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Butterfly62 Oct 3, 2024
Can I ask what LTC? She is on disability and ssi, but very low income.
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Butterfly,

Your mom’s living situation is not fixable as you explain it. Mother has made a commitment she doesn’t like but she feels free to make sure no one else has any peace either and refuses the facility care you offered.

You need to stop talking to her. Full stop.

Your health can’t afford to continue to be involved in your mother’s chaos at this time. You need a clean break for a set period to regain your ability to self care.

You are getting no respite from your mother because she is continuing to place you in situations you are not mentally able to manage.

Tell your mother you need a break from phone calls so that she can settle in with sis and you can get control of your mental health. Ask DH to sit with you while you make the call.

Journal your feelings each day. Try to find something to laugh about. Take walks. Make sure you are sleeping well. If your weight loss is worrisome, visit your doctor. Actually you should visit your doctor immediately and find a therapist to accelerate your recovery.

Find a way to reset the order of your day that leaves you little time to fret over mom.

People are not always able to believe you , to truly grasp your meaning, when you tell them you feel like you are coming apart at the seams. Their inability to understand that doesn’t lessen the fact that your poor mind needs a rest from trying to manage someone else’s life.

Many of us on this forum have had your experience. The longer you abuse yourself, the longer it will take for you to recover. Your situation is a personal emergency, not one you can afford to push through. People often get sick or have accidents when they don’t pay attention to their feelings. It is up to YOU to take action to stop the madness.

Take responsibility for yourself. Take back your good common sense. Recognize your mom is at an age/stage where she is only worried about herself. Talking to her isn’t helping her and is making your health worse.

Will this new regime upset her? Of course but she will learn that she has to adapt to the new order of things.
You are basically feeding her discontent by allowing her to stir the pot on a daily basis. If she has tears on the daily, medication will help with that.

Likewise, if you have tears on the daily, medication will help but you, unlike your mom, can regulate your emotions by walking, cleaning out your closets, laughing at a movie, dancing, cooking a nice meal for your family. Reading a good book, gardening, breathing, stretching, resistance exercises, meditation. Anything that keeps you busy and helps relieve those stressful feelings.

Catch yourself laughing out loud, smiling, giving hugs, being grateful. enjoying your food. When that happens you will know you are getting better.

Your mood is important. It is the key to having a good day. Set the intention at night of a good rest. Plan what you will do the next day and do it.

You reached out today. You have started on the path of getting better. You will find it cathartic to release those pent up feelings.
Wishing your entire family peace.
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Butterfly62 Oct 3, 2024
Thank you, for those encouraging words! It mean a lot!
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You did the best you could. These home care situations are rarely sustainable past a certain point, but we don’t know that when we go into them. I hope you can get your life back. Don’t worry about mom. She didn’t plan well enough for her old age care, so what is happening now is on her.
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You were right to get her out of your home. You weren't wrong to do that. You took her in when she needed help and you are right about families sometimes just can't live together. Don't I know it, my friend.

Your mother doesn't want to be at your sister's and your sister doesn't want her there. Your sister isn't wrong either.
It's time for you and your sister to do some research together and find a facility that is appropriate for your mother's needs and whatever level of independence she still has. For example, if she isn't out-of-it with dementia, she doesn't belong in a memory care facility with people who are.

Assisted living may be the best bet for her and everyone else. It's different than a nursing home.

You have to get a grip and some control over your emotions for your own sake. It sounds like you're about to have or have had a nervous breakdown. You don't deserve to suffer like that and you did nothing wrong. Please call your doctor and ask for some anti-anxiety medication for yourself and a referral for some therapy. It helps to talk about things.

None of this is your fault and you can't fix everything. Decisions have to be made for your mother and you don't have to make them on your own. If I were you, when your mother calls you to complain about living with your sister, cut that off right away. The only response from you should be that you'd be more than happy to find her a good place where she will receive the help and care she needs to have a decent quality of life.

DO NOT indulge her in her complaining or give her one moment of your attention for it. When she calls to complain about your sister, tell her what I just said. If she persists in the complaining, end the call.

There's a fine line between venting and chronic complaining. Venting is when a person needs a break and needs to talk but is handling their situation and doing what they need. Chronic complaining is when a person has absolutely no intention of making even the slightest attempt at trying to improve their lives and situations. They would rather live in total misery holding steadfast to their own asinine stubbornness in order to maintain the status quo. Forget that.

Being an ear for a chronic complainer never helps anything no matter how old they are. Either your mother accepts this or you and your sister will have to make plans for her rather than with her then put them into action. I hope it doesn't come to having to do it this way, but your family along with your own mental/physical health has to come first. Not catering to your mother.
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Butterfly62 Oct 3, 2024
Thank you!
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Love is a feeling
Received and given, freely
When also apart

Take some time in nature.
Take a walk, a bath, music.
Calm the internal farm.

Love is wonderful, yet rarely enough to smooth every issue caused in a multi-gen household.

Start to settle into YOUR household again. Once you do, you may see things differently, with more clarity. It wasn't really working for all of you.. was it? when that happens.. resentments grow & tempers flare.

Breathe & rebalance.
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I read way too fast, Butterfly. Didn't see your mom lives with Sis now.
To me, problem solved. Rather problem belongs to Sis. Like you she has chosen to take Mom in and will need to handle that herself.

As to phone? You have perfect and easy control over that. It is a device. It is a tool. Don't allow it to ruin your life.
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Laugh and laugh some more.
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cxmoody Oct 3, 2024
The OP is seriously in a crisis.

Answers like these, over and over, Cover, do not demonstrate the compassion that is sorely needed in a reply to someone who comes to us at the end of their rope.

I was one of those people. Thank God that there were replies that actually addressed my questions.
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