My mother moved into my home in 2013 and ever since then my life is no longer my own.
Lately now she is getting verbally abusive towards me. She locks herself in her bedroom and I get seriously worried about her being hurt and then she comes out screaming at me. She has taken over my home...it is no longer mine. If I've purchased alcohol, she throws it away. I am not allowed to have my boyfriend over. I live in my bedroom and have no say in anything at all. For goodness sakes, I'm 57 years old! Plus I have MS...so this stress is just terrible.
My stepdad purchased this house for me to have a place to live with affordable rent. Since his passing this house is no longer my home but hers.
I can't take her abuse...she's just downright brutal to me!
We've checked into assisted living but she doesn't like the place because she says there's too many 'old people' there. The place is beautiful! How can she not like it?
She asked my daughter if she could live with her and my daughter is considering it! My daughter has three of my adorable grandbabies and is totally stressed out with work and daycare, and so I tried to explain to her I don't believe mom moving in there is the answer to our issues...but she feels 'sorry' for her.
I'm falling apart and don't know where to turn. This is awful.
If the house belongs to her, YOU move out. You'd be better off living in a studio apartment of your OWN, on your own, than in this living nightmare you're in now.
Enough is enough. Fix this mess right away!
Good luck!!
You have been living in this home and paying rent since before your stepfather passed away. After your stepfather's passing, title to the home is now, presumably, solely in your moms name, and you are still paying rent to her. I'm also assuming that your mom could live alone without need for care.
If that is all true, I'm not sure what you can do except move out. Find somewhere else you can afford and move out. You did it before when you were young. You move out, you moved on, you raised a daughter, and now you have three adorable grandchildren. God bless you!
Do not let your mother move in with your daughter. There's actually not much you could do about it, but do try very hard to talk your daughter out of it. She needs to raise her own children and not be burdened with taking care of her grandmother.
Do you own the house or does she? Or jointly?
Who has durable PoA for her?
Answering these questions will help the forum give you better guidance.
Please, under NO circumstances should your daughter allow her to move in with her!
Also, if you are able to get your mom checked for a UTI, I would do it. It can worsen dementia symptoms but has an easy cure of antibiotics.
Do know also--and I think you recognize this--whether purposely so or as a result of her disease your Mom is being abusive to you. Perhaps she always was? And it is what you expect and are used to? Because you have to recognize now that this is all in your hands, and your choice. Your mother is no longer in control. You are. People always think they WANT control, but honestly there is a good deal of grieving involved with recognizing we DO have limitations, we are NOT able to fix everything, and life is NOT going to be pretty. I feel sorry for Mom, as well. But there is no other answer, unless that person feels so sorry that they would like to take on this "undoable" task.
Good luck. I hope you will recognize going forward that it is now your choice for your life. No one can do it for you. No one can make it pretty. No one can make everyone happy. I am so sorry for all the grief. But grief is a part of life for us all, and the sooner we accept that fact the less we will fight the tears; we will just spill them and let them help to bathe us in forgiveness. Of ourselves and our limitations. Of others, and their own limitations.
Do remember my admonitions about Sainthood. You will die tortured and shot full of arrows. Then you can spend eternity attempting to answer the prayers of humanity. Not a good job description. Love out to you. You WILL get this, no matter how long it takes. The bottom of the barrel is sometimes a good place to be because there's nowhere to go but up.
As to assisted living being full of old people. Yup. My bro is in one and has found that to be the case. And he and I will sit out in the sun and compare how much it is like the 60s communes of our youth. Everyone bickering, and complaining. Hee hee.
This is YOUR home; is mom's name on the deed or does she have a lease?
Is she paying rent?
What impairments has she been diagnosed with?
Have you told her, straight out, that you will no longer tolerate verbal abuse? What is her response?
What actions are you willing to take (changing the locks, eviction, calling 911)?
Move on, she will figure it out on her own, no reason to continue accepting her abuse as the normal course of life.
It is up to you to make a change, she is not going to change, she will only get worse, not better either.