I’m sure you all know the routine, you have notes posted everywhere, you repeatedly show how to do something and you call several times during the day to make sure everything is alright. I try to discuss the facts with her that she might have Alzheimer’s or some other dementia and sometimes she agrees and other she thinks that I and my sister are out to get her. I try not to get mad, but it’s hard not to when the facts are clear as day. I realize her perception is not based on reality all the time, but still I try to tell her I’m only doing this because I love her and I’m trying to do what’s best for her. After seeing all the horror stories on here about dealing with this I can only imagine what the future holds since this is just the earliest phase of this disease. I am prepared for the worst that is going to happen because there is no stopping this disease. I just hope against hope that any kind of medicine she might get from this neurology doctor helps slow down or even stop the progress of whatever she has. I know this isn’t the case and it will get worse, but still I hope and pray.
Sometimes I put on Helen Reddy song” You and Me against the world” and just bawl my eyes out or Paul Anka “Times of your life”. I’m 51 but wish to h*ll I could go back to be a little boy and make this all go away. I guess everyone goes through this and I guess by the time the end actually happens I will not have any emotions left to spare. The thing that scares me more is by the time I reach this age there may not be anyone there to look after me as I never married and had any children. I just wish Mom would be more grateful for all I’m doing for her. She has no money except for her Social Security and no life insurance so I having nothing to gain from her demise. My sister has told me stories of her job in a nursing home where people actually call and ask when the hell someone is going to die. I know each and every one of us has issues with parents some worse than other, but I could never have that kind of animosity to someone that raised me to the best of her abilities.
I’ll keep you posted on the neurology doctor visit and hopefully will get a detailed explanation on what’s going on. I already know or have that gut feeling, I just want Mom to know from the Doctor that this is really going on and that we are trying to help her. Maybe this is Gods way of teaching me the ultimate in patience. I never had children so I never learned how to take care of someone till now. God bless each one of you for the tireless task you do.
When will the doctor have something definite to tell you? Was your mom diagnosed with dementia? I can't tell which phase she may be at now from your post.
You sound very kind and loving to your mother. I'm sure she is very appreciative of that. Losing her memory must be very frightening. Having your concern and support must be her much comfort.
It doesn't matter if THEY know or not, it matter that WE know, and get all the help and use all the resources available to us to walk this path...Hope we see you here often.... we understand, you will not be judged, and we even laugh sometimes.... greatest therapy on earth.... you will make friends, and you are not alone..... let us know how her Dr. visit goes..... sending you hugs for reaching out for help and not wanting to do this alone.....
I am so glad you are going to have more information to work with. Having Mom evaluated is the right thing to do! But that is so you will be best able to deal with her helpfully. She may never accept the diagnosis. So what?
My mother often worries that she's forgotten something. I say, "It's OK Ma. You do have a little memory loss but you have all kinds of people around to remember for you. You might not remember if you've eaten or not, but no one is going to let you miss meals. We'll take care of you!" It would only distress her to know she has the big scary D word.