My mother lives 5-10 min from me. I never see her and rarely talk to her unless I call her. I used to call her weekly but the conversation always got ugly so I recently stopped calling as often.
several weeks ago, she didn’t answer the phone after calling several times so I drove to her house. I rang the doorbell, knocked and nothing. I got my key out and let myself in not knowing what I’d find. Turns out she was on her screened porch reading a book in the nearly dark evening. She is very hard of hearing so she blamed it on that.
I tried to have a heart to heart conversation with her about how my grown daughter and I never hear from her and how anytime she needs help for instance after a surgery, I tell her I’ll take her for the surgery, she agrees then gets her elderly sister that lives an hour and a half away to take her. She recently had her gall bladder removed and months before that had her 2nd knee replacement. She always pushes me away. When she had the 2nd knee replacement done, she drove hours away to an old family friend that she reconnected with and her friend took her and Mom stayed at her house 3-4 hours away. This was last November. She’d stayed with this friend for an entire month when she had her first knee done. So she led me to believe she’d be there for a month again. Well, my sister comes here from NC every Thanksgiving so sister comes up and stays in Mom’s house the week of Thanksgiving to wait for Mom to arrive the next day. My sister cooks a Thanksgiving meal and neither invites me or my daughter. In fact, we were not told any different by Mom that she’d be coming home 2 weeks post-op. It was a big secret.
these things keep happening, with pushing me away after I’ve agreed to take her for surgery, hiding things from me. Now I rarely hear from her. I’ve seen her twice this entire year!
so when I had to go to her house to check on her a few weeks ago, I wanted to have that heart to heart conversation with her to see what I’ve done to deserve this. I was gentle and picked my words carefully. She stood up claiming urgency to use the bathroom but first she screamed at me and I couldn’t hold back so I told her I am 55 years old and not to talk to me that way. She took forever in the bathroom so I left and came home. She did call me afterwards but I’m so tired of her abuse. She has been neglectful and verbally abusive all my life. I Guess things will never change and I’ll never have a mother that loves me. She favors my sister and if I call my sister out of concern that this is dementia- like behavior, she doesn’t believe me and says Mom is perfectly lucid. There’s been instances of Mom claiming to have called 911 because she says she heard gunshots. There’s nobody shooting guns! I work for Public Safety and there’s no record of either of her phone numbers having called 911.
I’ve never dealt with these things before and feel like Mom shouldn’t be living alone but yet she’s really not a candidate for assisted living just yet. Do I just stop checking on her and go no contact or just keep doing what I’ve been doing at a huge risk to my mental well being?
Secondly, something is amiss with your mother, and it may not be her cognizance but her mental health in general that's wonky. She's obviously got something against you, for some reason, that your sister is encouraging, for some reason.........so leave the two of them TO IT. That's my suggestion. To insist on helping someone who doesn't want your help is an exercise in futility. We have people here who are being burdened down with mothers who drive them to the brink of insanity with their needs & wants, and the daughters are at the end of their ropes. You, on the other hand, are being ghosted by your mother, which in a way, is a blessing. I understand your need to feel loved by her, but at this point, it doesn't seem to be viable. So let it go, and be grateful (to some degree) that she's not insisting you wait on her hand and foot 24/7. Leave her to her own devices until and unless SHE asks YOU for help.
So yes, stop checking on her and either go low or no contact at this point. Leave your odd sister to check on mother, or wait till mother asks YOU for help. Then you can decide how to deal with the matter once that happens. You don't have to be kicked in the stomach over and over again to get the message. You went over there to check on her, she locks herself away in the bathroom for such an extended period of time (after screaming at you inappropriately) that you had to leave, for petesake! Who does such a thing? A person with mental health issues, that's who. I have no idea what her problem is, and neither do you. You went over there for a heart-to-heart talk which she shut down. So what can you do? Nothing. The woman prefers to ask friends to help her rather than her own daughter, so that speaks volumes right there, doesn't it?
My mother made it impossible for me to have a close relationship with her. No matter what I did or how hard I tried, she shut me down. Then made me feel like it was somehow MY fault we weren't close. I wasn't buying it. I did for a while, as a younger woman. But then one day I had an epiphany: I said, hey, this is MOM'S mental health issue, not MINE. And that let me off the hook, so to speak. Once I realized it really wasn't 'my fault' at all, but hers, I allowed myself to live a guilt free lifestyle (for the most part) and do the minimum for her (as an only child) and be okay with that decision. Mom lived in Assisted Living and then Memory Care, and I did manage her life for her, so that was me doing my part w/o getting 'close' to her in the process.
Wishing you the best of luck protecting your well being from the ministrations of a mentally unhealthy mother.