My husband had been very ill for over 10 years with Autonomic neuropathy. We were told often that he could linger for years or would die in 6 months, 2 weeks, and every other time imaginable. He always got a little bit better but declined very slowly. It shouldn’t be a shock but it is. I just can’t believe he really did die this time. He also kept going though bedridden and in pain the last 1 1/2 years. I took care of him at home with absolutely no help from family. A couple of friends would occasionally bring groceries and pick up his medication when I couldn’t safely leave him alone. I’m so tired and can’t sleep.
Love helps, hope keeps you going and good old fashions stubbornness does the rest.
When you can, I wish you a peaceful sleep.
Take care
Buzzy x x
Give yourself time, I have always believed that we can never be prepared for the loss of a loved one.
Maybe you can get a friend or two to come stay a couple of days and give you some TLC?
I pray that God blesses you with grieving mercies.
Hugs!