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I'm a caregiver to my only remaining parent (lost two). I feel burnt out even with him living in a community and getting help two days a week. I have my own health issues, two jobs, and feel like I've been the "parent" for more than 30 years (since I was 12). My dad only calls when he needs something. Isn't capable of a conversation other than to complain. Only cares how I'm doing because it impacts his own care (I'm sure this isn't TRUE but it's how it feels). I find myself avoiding him. And feeling guilty about it. Is this normal?

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Yes it's normal, and yes it does often feel like they only care about them selves. as far as I'm sure it's not true and they care about you, more than just because they want you healthy just to help them, my vote is still out on that.

You have nothing to feel guilty about, you didn't make your dad old you didn't make him the way he is. Age happened , broken brain happened. You did cause this you have nothing to feel guilty about.

It sure sounds like you have done your share of caregiving in your life.

Don't feel guilty for avoiding him, you have done nothing wrong . Enjoy your life, shut your phone off and call him back when you want to not when he is demanding it.

Daughter of to vets? Does that mean your family is or was military, trust me that leads to even another element to there personality, and difficultness. I know this one. Welcome to are forum.
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I would challenge that guilty feeling, for you’ve done nothing to feel guilty about. Avoiding someone who only uses you for help or as a sounding board for griping is a natural reaction. Consider that what you’re feeling is sadness that the situation that be different or better. Sadness that you were used as a caregiver far before an age when it was appropriate, sadness that you’re just plain exhausted from it all. None of that is any reason to feel guilt. Take dad’s calls when it’s convenient for you, listen to a minimal amount of complaining, and get off the phone, as you don’t need the negativity in your life and it’s not beneficial to either of you. I wish you peace
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If a "friend" did the same, called only when they needed something, when they did call it was to complain about whatever the issue of the moment was, and asks about you only as a precursor to asking for help themselves what would you do?
I bet you would not take each and every call.
I bet you would do exactly what you are doing...avoiding them
Your parent is in a community where he is able to get the help he needs.
Your parent is in a safe place
Maybe he needs help more than 2 days a week. Can that be arranged?
Tell your dad that you can help him on -------------and tell him what day is convenient for YOU.
Tell your dad that you can't take phone calls while you are working. Once you tell him that if he calls during your work hours let the call go to voicemail. If it is an emergency he can call 911.
You need to set BOUNDARIES and you need to tell him what those boundaries are and you need to stick to them.
This is for YOUR health.
If he can not manage day to day activities where he is with help a few days a week maybe he needs more help that he would get in an Assisted Living facility.
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Does Dad suffer from Dementia? By Community do you mean he lives independently? If he does have Dementia, hecneeds to be in Memory Care.

If he is competent, than you may need to be blunt. "Dad, I am sorry but I can't deal with your problems. I have my own. I work two jobs and I just can't come home to your complaining. Solve your problems yourself or stop complaining. " You also need to set boundaries. Tell him make a list of what he needs. You will call when you have time to get the items on the list. Can this person he has do this? If so, inform the person that they need to run errands for Dad. My nephew, disabled, has an aide once a week appts and outings are done that day. I am only involved when an appt can only be made another day.
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It is a normal animal response to avoid the unpleasant or dangerous. And a GOOD response to have and keep honed.

Guilt requires causation. That is to say that guilt means that you cause something by evil intent and you, by evil intent, intend not to fix it.
You didn't cause aging for your parent.
You can't fix aging.
Your parent isn't your responsibility. Your responsibility is any minor children you have brought into this world and are caring for. Your husband who you made vows to.

You are a grownup. Honestly it comes down to whether you will continue to marinate in the past your parent created, or whether you grasp a new and better future. You may need psychological counseling in order to break free of habitual ways of acting and reacting. I highly recommend it. None of this silly online counseling; they get paid nothing and are worth less than that.

Good luck. It's your choice and up to you.
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I just remember how I was treated as a kid, and the guilt just melts away.
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Just set down a day and time to visit each week and that cuts down on the feelings of guilt. You listen to the complaining for as long as possible, then say your goodbyes. The truth of the matter is, there ARE elders out there who act nicely. That our loved ones choose to complain and act entitled is not our fault or our job to fix. Just as it's not our place to fix old age and disease, it's not within our power.

No matter HOW MUCH I did for my mother, she made sure I knew it wasn't nearly enough. How was I supposed to feel, knowing that? I was supposed to feel miserable and guilty but I didn't. I felt like she was never satisfied, even if I'd managed to put her up in the Palace of Versailles. She'd have complained the gold was tarnished. Not my problem.

In reality, I so wished for parents I felt close to. A mother I was friends with. But she made it impossible. Had we been friends, I'd have been able to see her often or even have her live with me. But the way things were, it was impossible. Due to HER ridiculous behaviors, not mine. We reap what we sow.

Don't internalize your father's issues and make them your own. Do what you can on the day you visit each week, then let it all go till the next visit.

Good luck.
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My father started every phone conversation with "I've got a problem...". I cringed every time the phone rang. And no he never asked how I was because that didn't matter.
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MSalazar227 1 hour ago
My mother starts each call with “Are you busy? I’ve just called to ask a question.” She doesn’t even wait to hear if I’ve said yes or no to being busy. It’s straight to the questions. 9/10 are “ Have you seen my Facebook page? Will Smith (any celebrity) has asked me for thoughts and prayers. What should I do?”
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Just remember Respect is a two way street
If you’re not getting it time to amend your behaviour and not give as much
Boundaries is your new best friend
tell him you have another job to hrlp
neet bills so can’t answer him between x and x time
or something
find a way of switching off
and getting your own sauce/tine
mahve with time he will see your true value and reform his selfish ways
no guilt justified
you weren’t born to live someone else’s life
be the main character of your own life
and take back some of it
good luck
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I have recently severed contact with my father. He is a high conflict person who will never be satisfied and has no problem dumping on everyone with who he comes in contact. This has always been his personality and always will be. I could give all sorts of examples, but I do not feel the need to justify anything. I am done. My boundaries were pushed and pushed until I just decided to remove myself. Guilt is a useless emotion as it doesn't really solve anything. Be honest with yourself about what you can tolerate. We do not owe any other human our life. We get one, that is all.
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My dad is in memory care. He does not have access to a phone there. I've instructed the care givers not to call me and put him on the phone. They redirect by saying Jackie's busy now and we can't call her. He forgets about it. If there is a medical reason to call me, of course, they do so. The few times we have talked are the phone are excruciating and are usually all about me coming to take him out of there. The months leading up to placing him in memory care were incredibly stressful and now it's time for me. I have set boundaries which I didn't always do in my life. You might resort to not answering when you see their number on caller ID. Then you could call staff and see if there is an emergency if it makes you feel better.
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