I don't know if this is a statement or a question.
I am sick, sick, SICK of Caring for my 71 year old mother. I've reached out for help, I've begged community organizations and tried to get her Medicaid.. nothing because she has a vehicle and life insurance (none of which I will receive when she dies) it all goes to my sister! So diagnosis -Mom had metastatic lung cancer that went to her brain, a following craniotomy, arterial disease x6, COPD, vasogenic edema from a stroke in June 2022 and currently, stasis ulcers on the foot and pressure sore on her heel from laying all the time (by choice, she is incredibly lazy) even her physical therapist gave up- he said can't and won't are 2 different issues. Now, she has hospice- 2x per week for 15 minutes and a very sweet Aide who comes 3x a week for 15-20 minutes for bath time. That's it... IT I dress ulcers, clean up accidents she's hidden, pick up trash off her floor etc. I tried for respite and finally got it last weekend, I was SO excited!! Then my mother decided to make my respite time a living hell, calling me at 3am and 4am whining about how miserable she was. I stopped answering so she started calling anyone who would listen to tell them she had been abandoned! It was literally the 1st respite I have had in 7 years! She proceeded to tell me a pack of lies about not getting her medications- when I said "no I'm not coming to pick you up"! She called me nasty names then hung up on me. She was angry that nurses were controlling her meds and wouldn't give her what she demanded (she wanted 2 Ativan and 2 tramadol) her Rx is only for 1 of each every 6 hours. Anyway, I went to pick her up this morning after the hell she's raised for 3 days and, of course, she falls coming up the stairs into the house! She weighs about 70 pounds more than my 106 pound frame, so getting her up was not going to be easy. I tried, she almost pulled me on top of her so I told her just to crawl into the dang house. And she did- the fall itself almost looked staged, she went down easy, crumbling onto her knees howling like a wounded animal the whole- slow- way. I should probably tell you that Friday she told everyone she had a *seizue* claiming she cried and cried for help; but alas, in the middle of her terrible fit, she had to put oxygen on herself and take her own medicine! (Personally, I don't believe her) I think it was a last ditch effort to guilt me into keeping her home and not taking time for my child.
I find my mother, as I have my entire life, to be a selfish, self serving large child who was always pampered and now, she thinks *somehow* that it is the job of the child she didn't want (me) to make her better and to be her emotional dumpling ground. I'm sick to death of her! I contacted the hospice social worker and plainly stated, she doesn't need to be in my house, she needs a facility PERMANENTLY! I received no additional response from the hospice social worker.
I have family; however, they are very undependable a 42 year old sister who is as self centered as my mom and an aunt (mom's sister) who is in worse shape than she is, yet, when I have to do anything for myself, I'm expected to call these people and tell them what is going on. (Which ALWAYS spawns an unsolicited opinion with a side of guilt) I call to tell them because I don't want my mother making me sound like an evil person (she plays the pity card well, and often).
Again, I don't know if I'm just in burnout mode and I'm ranting or if there is a question in here somewhere. I DO know if I hear the words "you need to take a break" one more time, I'm going to puke! It is impossible- like she thinks I'm not entitled to an ounce of privacy, family time with my OWN husband and daughter or what. I am just ready to see the glorious light at the end of the tunnel, but right now, I feel alone, Isolated and VERY unheard!
Obviously she doesn't give a crap about you since only your sister is the beneficiary of her life insurance.
Walk away from all caregiving for mom and anyone else in your family.
And if you wont walk away then stop trying to lift and move her before you permanately screw your back up.
And pkease stop
I really shouldn't be helping at all. I know I'm not helping my case. I actually asked her hospice nurse today how much longer I had to endure this?
When she fell the last time, you could have called 911 and had them take her to the ER. Next time she falls, do it. Don’t let her browbeat you into tucking her in bed and being so nicey nice. Just get her out of the house.
Then at the ER tell them it’s an unsafe discharge and you can no longer take care of her. They’ll have to find her a place, and that’s that.
I really went into this to do the right things. I wanted to help because no one would and she had literally nothing, she was about to lose the house etc. My husband wants her out ASAP! We just don't know where to start.
Gonna be blunt, sorry. You need to grow a spine and refuse to take her back next time she's in the hospital. Change the locks and call the police if she makes her way back to your place and report an intruder.
This is absolute insanity. The Japanese practice of Ubasute would also be appropriate in this situation, and you conveniently live in a state with mountains!
This.
You have no obligation to care for her nor do you have to update relatives who are not involved for her care. Again , that is something you are choosing to do. You don't need to answer their calls or proactively reach out to them.
I know it is hard to change habits, but you need to realize that you are allowing all of this to happen. Your mother, sister, etc. will not change so if you want the situation to change, you need to do it. If you feel you can't do that, you need to accept it or you will continue to suffer mentally, physically and emotionally.
You need her out of the house. For your sanity and safety.
Talk to the Social Worker at Hospice, the Nurse as well. Tell them that you can no longer care for your mother. It is unsafe for you to continue to do so. Ask them to help find placement for her. Many facilities that "don't have a bed" will find one for a hospice patient because they know it will not be a resident they will have for years. (typically that is the case)
Anyway, I proceeded to tell her it's important the bandages remain intact due to her risk of infection!
I proceeded to RE apply the bandage and she says to me "you would be one shitty nurse"
I stopped what I was doing and called the hospice people. I told them they needed to come wrap this thing ASAP. She interrupted me- well I wasn't trying to piss you off!
Why else would someone say something like that? A person that's treated like a servant. I'm truly doing my level best! I can't win with her!
If you live there, move out. If you don’t live there, block her number on your phone. Block the numbers of the people who will phone you to complain – they can always write you a letter if they really think they need to, and letters are usually shorter and more polite. Give your mother a list of the ways she can get hands-on help from an agency, and send copies of the list to the other family members if they write to you.
Set her up with some food, then call APS after a week or two. Stopping this won’t take long, if you think about your own rights.
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