I have a parent with Alzheimer's and I constantly struggle as to what extent I assist with the parent with caregiving and funds.
Do you owe that to your parents? They chose to have you for their own selfish reasons in an overcrowded world that does not need more people. And for that they owe you as their children to raise you with sufficient care but do you owe them anything? A baby bird doesn't feed its parent. What do you owe them?
I have a lot of resistance towards providing help I think because of how my life has been. I was physically and psychologically abused as a child and have not had a great relationship since moving out of the home either. My parent also never helped me with my education costs. And never helped me with purchasing a home and never provided any financial support since left home at any stage. Returning to home was never any option to me at any point if I ever hit dire straits. I never received any emotional support at any stage. I was always worried about something happening to me as I felt I had no family support if it did. Never ever felt I had any family support to rely on. Neither emotional nor financial. I have never had any sort of safety net for anything at all. My parent also arranged that all of their assets go to the surviving step parent who was also part of the abuse. So I will never see any inheritance either.
But then I had a roof over my head as a child and I had food. So my basic needs were met. Do I owe the parent caregiving and funds for that? I don't feel like I do. Other people seem to think I do. Other extended family members who don't know all the details. When I am reluctant to do things to aid the parent people say things like "what for the people who raised you and housed you and fed you?"
I think I have economic and psychological issues due to the lack of family support I have always had. It seems to have affected me up until now, at 38 years of age. I don't feel like my parent has helped me to flourish in my life. So I just don't have those feelings that I want to help much with caregiving or give much money to assist with the care costs.
So, my parental influence in my life has been a negative thing for me. Not a positive supportive thing. Except for having basic needs met as a child. This while at the same time as it being coupled with physical and psychological abuse. So one thing was given and other things taken away. Do I owe anything for having had my basic needs met as a child? If so, how much do I owe them?
Who's childhood was perfect? Mine certainly wasn't. Neither was my parent's. In fact, nowadays, my mother keeps telling me that she 'wishes she had children of her own' that my father couldn't give her. She was forced to adopt me b/c my father was sterile. That's the crap I have to listen to while trying my best to offer care & support to my 94+ year old demented mother who lives in Memory Care Assisted Living. Why do I do it, listen to her rant & rave and keep coming back for more? Because I love her. In spite of her tirades and the fact that I wasn't what she had hoped for in a daughter, and in spite of the fact that she hasn't been what I hoped for in a mother. She got stuck with me and I got stuck with her, in reality. She's my only mother and I'm her only child. If not me, who? If I don't look after her wellbeing, who will do it? Should I let her live in Memory Care and in a Skilled Nursing Facility down the road (perhaps) alone with no advocate and no visitors b/c she hasn't been The Ideal Mother? Or b/c she didn't give me money for a house or pay for my college education? Or b/c she was a lousy mother based on her own lousy upbringing? Or b/c she's been emotionally abusive to me throughout the years? I can write you a list as long as a roll of toilet paper about the things she's said & done to me over the years, but in the end, I WANT to help her b/c otherwise she'd be alone in this world. And I'd feel like a totally useless human being if I abandoned her.
What I can and WILL do, however, is set down boundaries with the woman to protect my own sanity and my own heart. When she gets going on one of her tirades, I can leave her presence or hang up the phone. I can call off a visit to see her for a week while I recharge my batteries again. I can do all of that w/o abandoning the woman & looking for an 'out' to never see her or deal with her again, much as I'd like to do that sometimes. Truth is, I wouldn't be able to live with MYSELF if I took that route.
I don't contribute financially to my mother's long term care either. I don't have a 401K or a retirement income for myself, so I'm not going to use what money I DO have towards her care. The money she and my father made and saved is being used for her care, along with her SSI and VA funds that are coming in. When her income is depleted is when I will apply for Medicaid to have her placed in Skilled Nursing in early 2022 if she is still alive at 95 years old. She, of course, will be even more hostile towards me at that time b/c she will have a roommate to contend with in the SNF which she does not have now in the MC. But this is not my fault, same as nothing else has been 'my fault' all along this journey. Just b/c she perceives it that way does not make it a fact. I refuse to internalize HER misconception about ME.
You have to figure out what YOU want to do or not do for your parents as an adult now. Not based on what others feel you 'owe' them, or even what you feel you 'owe' them. But based on what you WANT to do for them out of the love you feel in your heart. Go from there. If you feel no genuine love and won't feel badly about yourself for removing them from your life, then go ahead and do so. Otherwise, make your decisions accordingly.
Good luck, whatever you choose to do
You shouldn't be using any of your money to help them. Have them liquidate their assets to cover their own costs. Tell them you are no longer going to pay for any of their needs (whether you don't want to or are unable to is immaterial). If you want to contribute to their care, you can suggest that mom looks for a care facility. That, too, would require that they use their own assets, not yours.
What you can do is have them help themselves by contacting the agencies that Grandma1954 has suggested.
You owe your parent only what you're willing to give. If it's nothing, then that's what they deserve.
No one in this life should expect to get more than they were ever willing to give themselves. Often what happens with our elderly "loved ones" is they expect their family to revere them and do everything for them in their old age simply because they reached old age. Well, there's a lot of time between youth and old age, my friend. During all that time, if our elderly of today thought of no one but themselves and did for no one but themselves, they have no right to expect anything from anyone when their time of need comes. People like this who are now elderly, certainly have no right to expect a thing from their own kids who they abused, neglected, and were cruel to.
When you were a baby and child, your basic needs were met because your parents were legally obligated to meet your basic needs. Otherwise they could have faced criminal charges for child abuse and neglect. There was still plenty of child abuse in your life anyway. You are not legally or morally obligated to meet your parent's basic needs or any other need they have. Not when your experience in their family is as you say.
Try to forgive your parents though. Not for their sake but for your own. This does not mean that you have to take care of them or do anything for them.
Sure, there will always be people who are compelled to throw their sanctimonious two cents in and try to guilt you about your parents feeding, housing, and raising you. Sorry, but no parent gets a prize for doing the absolute minimal for their kids that the law will allow. You will never get judgement from people like me because I know exactly how you feel and there are plenty of people like us who understand.
If you want to give your parent equal to what they gave you in life, drop them off at a nursing home. They will be fed, housed, and kept. Give your parent exactly what they gave you.
You owe them nothing when it comes to caregiving.
They took on the responsibility for you when they decided to have a child (or if they did not "decide" to have a child when they took you home from the hospital rather than relinquishing you for adoption) Your basic needs were their responsibility not a benevolent gift bestowed upon you.
THEY should have been saving for their old age, their "golden" years.
If they ask for help you can give them the phone number to your local Area on Aging, Catholic Charities, Medicaid or if either is a Veteran the local Veterans Assistance Commission office or the VA. A local Senior Center will also have resources they can ask about.
However you do owe it to yourself to make sure that you learn from your parents mistakes, and vow to make sure you don't ever repeat them.
Now go and enjoy your life and don't give this issue another thought. Your parents will reap what they have sown.
https://www.agingcare.com/discussions/adult-children-abused-by-parents-who-are-now-elderly-467437.htm
I also noticed a PM from a member dated Jan 2020 suggesting u get some therapy so you have been dealing with this for a while NO, you don't owe "this woman" and you owe no one any explanations. I think you have handled your life well. You walked away from a abusive situation. You protected yourself. Continue to protect yourself. Like u said in the May 21st post, you do what you are comfortable with. You also said in the 21st post that you really don't know the ones harassing you. Just block them, ur allowed. If you need to fully walk away, do it.
"My parent also never helped me with my education costs. And never helped me with purchasing a home and never provided any financial support since left home at any stage."
I don't think you meant the above as you felt your parents should have done these things for you but to show anything you have gotten you have gotten with no help from your parents. Which is the way its suppose to be. Child leaves the nest and he is on his own. My DH and I have worked for everything we have. We never asked anything from our parents.
As an abused child you "owe" your parent nothing. Abused children should not care for the person who abused them. You have done everything right in stepping away from your abusers.
Continue to do that. You are not the one in the wrong here.
No, I suppose you don't owe your parents anything. Normally I tell people they need to be sure they're safe and fed but not necessarily by them, but there's too much angst here for that to even happen.
I will tell you this -- my dad had a terrible childhood with abuse, a father who abandoned him when he was five, an abusive stepfather, and he was shuttled among relatives for years. He'd attended 11 schools by the time he got to high school. His mantra was to do the opposite of what his parents would do in the same situation, and that made him a loving father, a devoted husband of 66 years, and a pillar of his community -- all without the benefit of therapy. He also cared for his mother and supported her for decades because while she was a deeply flawed person, she never walked away from him and his brothers. The brothers abandoned her, but Dad didn't. He chose not to judge her, and he took the good examples from her life and applied them to his. He started working at 10 years old, and he put himself through college, then Stanford for his MBA. He worked six days a week for the last 15 years of his career, and he retired at 59 to do volunteer work in his community. He cared for my mom until he died in 2018. There were 350 people at his funeral, and when we told his life story in the eulogy, you could hear audible gasps when we talked about the abuse and hardship he faced. People assumed he came from a family just like the one he created and were shocked to find it was the opposite.
My dad, not his parents, decided what kind of person my dad was going to be. You can do that, too.
I suppose if you're only 38, your parents are young enough for you to at least give them the heads up that you won't be there for them. That's enough care for you to provide.
Wonderful story about your dad. I loved reading your post. He rose above the terrible abuse he got when he was a child. Poor man, but how inspiring for others to know it does not have to be that way. He is an example to us all and such a wonderful and kind human being. You were so fortunate and blessed to have such a great dad. Hugs to you.
You certainly don't owe your parent monetarilly; if you were independently wealthy, paying for their care might be an option, but your obligation is to fund your OWN old age, not theirs.
Have you read Boundaries by Townsend and Cloud?
I do not have any answers. However, counseling has helped me process a lot! I recently found letters from my parents had written to each other. It’s quite telling my had narcissistic features before they were married. Also, I learned they hoped for a boy instead of a girl (me!). Oh well! I discovered my dad was probably more authentic than my mom. She divorced my dad for another man. My dad never indicated to me he he wanted a son. My parents never cared for their elderly parents in the ways I have taken care of them... and stepdad. Through recent counseling, I’ve learned I need to step back... even as an only child. Somehow... I developed a rescuer mentality. I am one person... with a family and job...I have decide what I can and will do... to help my mother (father died in August)... but her care cannot consume me.
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