Today I had a long crying bout. It just took my neighbor to ask how I was doing!!! It's the stress and feeling overwhelmed and alone.
Actually, it was a good day with Mom. I brought her flowers, which she loves. She was a little lucid and then the weird stories began. I'm sure she is hallucinating or is delusional. Poor thing!
I feel better and I think I just needed to get my emotions out. I have no one to vent to.
I was productive and went to the Agency of Aging today to see what services my Mom could receive and if they would be helpful to her. Such as meals on wheels, ect....
UGH! This is hard!
Take care of yourself.
-Rita Schiano
We're entitled to cry, to break down, to lose it. Trying to care for a loved one with dementia is probably the hardest thing we'll ever do. I don't think I ever visited my mother w/o crying in the car on the way home. Watching a person become a mere she'll of the tough person they once were is very difficult to process. We think of our parents as invincible, then they get old and feeble before our very eyes and that superhero suit vanishes. They become mortal, and we realize their days are short.
I'm sorry you're witnessing such a thing. You don't need to be brave, you just need to know you're human and this hurts.
I am happy for you that you were able to release the pressure with your tears. I find them so cleansing.
Great big warm hugs! This is hard.