SLEEP..., it is my only respite. seems to be ok for me, some issues now n then but not bad lately, just not enough sometimes. I don't dream much tho anymore..hmmmm?? But....When I was really really low point couple weeks ago I experienced this weird feeling sensation when I would wake up I was extremely disoriented for the first few minutes, unable to determine what day it was, where I was, was mom still alive or not, had my world caved in yet or not? I truly would have to sort this out! it was the strangest feeling ever, besides an actual panick attack I had once,many many years ago, b4 mom, anyway I am curious about this, anyone have similar experiences???
I have apnea, and did a sleep study some years ago. I felt like I wasn't sleeping at all, just starting to fall asleep and waking up over and over. I thought it was from being in a strange environment and having all this stuff hooked up to me, and then they woke me up to try the cpap device on me. I said, how could you get any information on my sleep if I haven't even gone to sleep yet? They told me "You've been asleep for two hours. But you've had sleep apnea which woke you up a little bit every few minutes. Lots of people LOVE the cpap device and never want to go a night without it. I tried a few different versions on a number of different occasions, and I HATED it and could never sleep for even a single moment. If it turns out you do have sleep apnea and you try the cpap but you don't like it, there are other options. I have done better with a dental appliance I wear at night that pulls my lower jaw forward a little bit to open the airway more, plus using Breathe-Right nasal strips and reducing allergens in my room. If it turns out you do have apnea, be sure to do something about it. It can cause high blood pressure and weight gain and lead to strokes and diabetes and all kinds of other health issues as well as driving accidents. If you can't get away from caregiving overnight to do a complete sleep study, they can give you a blood oxygen meter you clip on your finger for the night so they can confirm or rule out any sleep apnea. Oh, and weight gain could cause or exacerbate the apnea because the extra fat in the neck restricts the airway. Even with the dental appliance, etc., my apnea got worse since moving in with my mom because I let my diet get awful and I gained a lot of weight, and as a result I developed high blood pressure for the first time in my life. I am starting to lose the weight now, so hopefully those other issues will improve, too. Anyway, a lot of rambling, but I hope some of it was helpful.
Just makes me think now...Is that how my Momma feels? I hope not, she rarely show signs of agitation, idk....but skeeerrryyy!
You are just TOO TIRED.
Another sign of being over-fatigued is not remembering your dreams (because you still dream but just don't recall them).
I'm not going to say "get more rest" because I know you will if you possibly can. Easier said than done.
I had that disoriented feeling just the other morning, myself. I had to ask myself....'Okay...is mom here at home with me or where is she at?
I got up and looked to see if my little monitor was on that is tied to the camera I have in her room! Yep...there she was.